The Ordinary Life Of Me

2010-05-08T23:42:00.002+08:00

Molded into Godly Character

God uses his Word, people, and circumstances to mold us. All three are indispensable for character development. God's Word provides the truth we need to grow, God's people provide the support we need to grow, and circumstances provide the environment to practice Christlikeness.

If you study and apply God's Word, connect regularly with other believers, and learn to trust God in difficult circumstances, I guarantee you will become more like Jesus.

Many people assume all that is needed for spiritual growth is Bible study and prayer. But some issues in life will never be changed by Bible study or prayer alone. God uses people. He usually prefers to work through people rather than perform miracles, so that we will depend on each other for fellowship. He wants us to grow together.

In many religions, the people considered to be the most spiritually mature and holy are those who isolate themselves from others in mountaintop monasteries, uninfected by contact with other people.

But this is a gross misunderstanding. Spiritual maturity is not a solitary, individual pursuit!

You cannot grow to Christlikeness in isolation. You must be around other people and interact with them. You need to be a part of a church and community.

Why? Because true spiritual maturity is all about learning to love like Jesus, and you can't practice being like Jesus without being in relationship with other people.

Remember, it's all about love - loving God and loving others.

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Thinking points:
- how have i been molding myself to godly characters?
- how much do i allow people to speak into my lives?
- what are the godly characters that i have improve since last time till now?
- what other godly characters do i still need to improve on?

2010-02-28T23:44:00.002+08:00

oh man! xD

The new headphone is disappointing. It falls off my head easily and it has an awkward gap at the side between my head and the headphone. I should have tested it first before buying it. =(((

so much for the excitement.......

2010-02-23T22:16:00.002+08:00

yay yay!

i finally got a new headphones for myself le. =D hohoho. xD

anyway, purpose driven connection- daily hope is going to release a 6 days series of how to connect with people. within these 6 days, they are going to share 6 principles of how to connect with people. hopefully i can gain some deep insights and apply this into my life.

This is because i find that connecting with people on a heart-to-heart, soul-to-soul level is one most important skills that each can master.

Extract from purpose driven connection:

A study by the California Department of Health Mental found that if you're disconnected from other people -

You're two-to-three times more likely to die an early death;
You're four times more likely to suffer from emotional burnout;
You're five times more likely to suffer clinical depression, and;
You're ten times more likely to be hospitalized for an emotional or mental disorder.

HAHA. xD but that's not the reason why i want learn the principles of how to connect with people. the reason is because by connecting with people on a heart-to-heart and soul-to-soul level, i will be able to impact the lives of people around me. i would be able to help god build his kingdom up. =) hehe. so yup! i'm excited to learn what are the 6 principles of how to connect with people. hopefully i will be able to apply it in my lives as well. if not, learn also no use. haha. xD

2010-02-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

woah~ i recently got alot things i wanna do/buy this holidays till august

1) buy a new pair of roller blades and take up roller blading classes

2) sign up for drama or dance class. but i'm more into drama compared to dance. HAHA. xD

3) i wanna buy new headphones. i saw one a mth ago at one of the music store at The Cathay. wooohooo! looks really cool and stylish but cost ard $50. Quite ex for a headphones ar?

4) i wanna be committee planner for this year ndp exco planning team as well. xD

5) i WANT TO WORK AT THE UNIVERSAL STUDIO TOO! HAHA. xD but if i manage to get a job at the universal studio, i'm gonna say byebye to ndp exco planning team and the roller blade classes. i would still want to go for dance / drama class. hehe. xD

2010-02-20T11:18:00.002+08:00

A promised that was once forgotten...
Was reminded to me a 2 days ago...

In our daily lives, we are faced with many different types of obstacles- obstacles in our studies, spiritual life, school, work and even in our relationship with our love ones.

I once made a promise that we will overcome all obstacles we faced. but i have been running away recently; running away from problems, running away from my weakness, fearing to admit that i'm weak. i was even hoping that it will disappear by itself one day but it didn't.

today, i'm gonna renew this promise i've made. i will learned to face up the obstacles in my lives. i'll learned to recognise that i'm weak before god can make me strong. i'll try my very best not to run away when problem arises and turn to god for support everytime when the burden seems too heavy to carry. I know he is there and you are also there for me.

Thank you for the reminder.

2010-02-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhh!.. So fan si ren.

Just finished with all the universities applications today. hopefully i can get into SMU to study business administration. *prays hard* haha.

UP NEXT: DANCE OR DRAMA CLASSES!!!

I want learn dance or drama classes. And i hope through these classes, i will be able to build myself up. i'm a shy person to begin with. i fear criticism and rejection. i'm afraid of how ppl look at me. if you are someone i don't know, i don't bother much. but if you are someone i know, i mind it alot. Thus, through these classes, i hope i'm able to grow out of all these weakness.

BUT!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO LEARN IS BEST. =X

2010-02-18T12:21:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, things are so expected that you don't know what to say.

Sometimes, things are so expected but we still choose to hold on to the hope that the expected will not happen.

Sometimes, things are so expected that even though we expected such things to happen, it still affects our emotions greatly.

..............

So what should I do in times like this? Pray lor.

2010-02-12T16:55:00.002+08:00

Wooohooooo!

Ut3 is finally over. And i will be graduating from polytechnic with a diploma soon.
Finally... after these 3 years of studies... Hohoho..

Next up, I will be moving on to the next stage of my life. And Hopefully, I will be able to enter university.

As I approach this ending phase of my poly life, i kind of think and look back into my poly years.

So how have i spend my poly years? Not exactly fruitful huh. Hmmm?

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Well, there's definitely alot of things i hope to get rid off and build myself in b4 entering the next stage of my life. If I'm able to attend univerisity, i do hope that i'm able to make use of the next 5mths or so to build myself up so that i can have an impactful and fruitful life in uni. =)

2010-02-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

Dare to run

The assembly of the faithful surrounding yet unseen
The Is gathered as a witness to the race
And on the track awaiting are runners of today
The call has come for each to take his place.

The road ahead is narrow,
The way is sometimes steep
And only the committed claim the prize.
But standing at the finish,
With arms outstretched to greet us
Is the one who has endured the race
And paid the final price.

Dare to run, with our eyes fixed on Jesus
Following the footsteps of the One who’s gone before us
Dare to run in the power of His spirit
Called to be victors in the race already run
Dare to run

We must have our Savior’s vision
Compassion for the lost
Courage for the future
Love at any cost

Dare to run, with our eyes fixed on Jesus
Following the footsteps of the One who’s gone before us
Dare to run in the power of His spirit
Called to be victors in the race already run
Dare to run

2010-01-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

Universities Options:

1) Nanyang Technological University
Application Period: 1 Feb - 28 Feb 2010
Undergraduate Programme: Bachelor of Business (3.63)

2) National University of Singapore
Application Period: 1 Feb - 21 Feb 2010
Undergraduate Programme: Bachelor of Business Administration (3.50)

3) Singapore Management University
Application Period: Now till 8 April 2010
Undergraduate Programme:
Bachelor of Business Management (3.49)
Bachelor of Science (Economics) (3.30)
Bachelor of Social Science (3.28)

hmmmm?

2010-01-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, today's rj question is rather interesting.

[Some people will never learn anything, for this reason, because they understand everything too soon. ~Alexander Pope. Express your opinion based on the above quote]

There are those with whom a conversation is more like a fight. They are unskilled at listening, and every word you utter is an opportunity for them to launch into an argument of their own, large statements that sweep away any sense you were hoping to convey.

Such people are not stupid; indeed they often possess a sharp intelligence that has tricked them over many years into believing they understand what you are going to say before you have said it. Some people will never learn anything, for this reason, because they understand everything too soon.

Such conversations are more of a competition or more of a fight than anything else. Understanding and listening is the last thing they would ever do on their mind. Most people do overstanding, which is thinking they know about something without taking the trouble to find out about it.

=(

2010-01-04T22:45:00.002+08:00

Short update:

WAHHHHH!! been so busy over the past 2 months.

After finish UT1, went to US for holiday. busy with packing and stuff
Came back on 6dec. Chiong 1 week of lessons and fyp before the holidays.
During holidays, finished up my fyp, busy with christmas celebration and new year celebration.
Had class outing, caregroup, church services, family events, countdowns, sec sch gathering and etc...
After the hols, chiong for UT2...

which is what i'm doing now..

2009-11-05T19:44:00.005+08:00

AHHHHHH!!!!!!

2 FYP report (interim report and impact analysis report) - by 14 nov
1 Powerpoint slides (for individual assessment)- by 11 Nov
US Preparation Trip - 7 Nov and 11 Nov
E327 Human Factors Engineering UT1 - 6 Nov
E326 Lean Manufacturing and Six Sigma UT1 - 10 Nov
B321 Macroeconomics UT1 - 12 Nov

Heng there's still some time before my last UT- Supply Chain Management on 20 Nov

BUT after all these!! i'm so looking forward to my US trip. MUAHOHOHOHO!!

Yesterday, I took the h1n1 vaccine. It's so freaking pain. my arm is aching nowwww!

But dun worry friends, I will be safe when i come back from US despite the high number of h1n1 infected ppl in US. MUAHOHOHOH!

2009-10-27T09:49:00.001+08:00

sad!
depressed!
ahhhhhh!

my daily grade isn't that good after all. x(

2009-10-12T09:22:00.006+08:00

Together with my mum and sister, we brought Ai Irene, Uncle Robert and our 4yr old cousin evelyn to the zoo. It was drizzling initially and God had bless us with a fine weather- not hot, yet not cold. It has been a long time since I last went to the zoo. there has many new attractions and etc. My 4 yr old cousin was quite a handful, running ard in the zoo and mischievous in her own ways. Haha. I'm gald i make the right decision to stay with my family in the zoo if not, my sister definitely would not be able to kope with evelyn just her alone. Oh btw, because uncle robert has difficulty in walking, plus the the fact that my cousin kept running ard and also we were rushing to places to catch show and etc... my sister, cousin and I were separated from the adults.

After watching the elephant show, evelyn was running out of the place that she accidently trip and fell!!.. This was so panicking. cos her right knee start to bleed and her blood was dripping. the plaster my sister had was too small to cover her wound. Looking at the map, the nearest first aid point was the---- kids world which is super far from where we were. -.-ll in the end, my sister and I took turns to carry/piggy back her. she's 4yrs old and she weighs nearly 20kg n that's 4 bags of rice!. awww, now my arms and back are aching.

But overall, other than that, i enjoy the fun time we had together. seeing my cousin so lively and laughing out heartily, i knew she had enjoyed herself too. =)

Ohoh. one thing i want to learned from my 4yr old cousin, she's very brave. when she fall down, she did not cry at all. when the zoo staff attend to her wound, she did not cry at all. she didn't even make the 'ouch' sound. all she did was suck her little finger. lol. when i ask her why she sucking her finger, she just ans "very pain." this had definitely make me admire my 4 yr old cousin!

That's me, my cousin and the sealion. MUAHOHOHO!

2009-10-09T13:47:00.002+08:00

Woohooo!

Just a word and my heart feel so much lighter^^

Anyway, ytd i went shopping at taka with my family. As usual, evelyn was bubbling with energy, running ard the store, instilling laughers in my sister and I. Lol.

I got a set of clothes. Black cute black top for a cute girl like me =p. And a pair of black shorts with a shiny thin belt. Cool for a cool girl like me too.^^

Haha.. i also got some facial products which is my sister bought for me one. =)
Thanks JIE! wooohoo!!

okays. anyway, today i was almost late for school. there was a jam on the tpe expressway and i barely made it in time. luckily i left house slightly earlier than my normal time today. HAHA!

2009-10-08T23:56:00.001+08:00

I like to stand on very tall open space building...
With the wind blowing against my face...
Looking up in the sky...
Searching intently for God's face...
Problems starts to turn small... ...

2009-10-08T23:29:00.006+08:00

I really really don't understand...
How it happen?
Why it happen?
Was there a miscommunication?
... ... ... ...

2009-10-04T16:10:00.004+08:00

I have found my handphone le!!!! =)

Yuan lai is YOU! Yes! That's you Jie, that kidnap my handphone.

I found it under ur pillow and to think that you have been sleeping on top of it the past few days w/o realising it. -.-ll

grrrr!!!.. kidnapppeeerrrrrr!!

2009-10-04T00:50:00.004+08:00

Today's sermon in service is really great. Pastor Jeff shared abt resolving conflicts the biblical way. The points are simple and straightforward. And you may even know some of the points b4 attending this service. But somehow what pastor jeff shared really speak through me.

Just as i was lying on my bed just now, my mind when through what pastor jeff had said this evening.

"The wrong way to solve a conflict is by swallowing down the problem or exploding it onto ppl."

Just then, somehow, all the problems that i has swallowed b4 started flowing through my mind. Angry, hurt, upset and etc starting swelling up in my heart. The emotions were too overwhelmed that tears just keep flowing. lol. One by one, the scenarios played b4 my mind. It was only then i started to respond to the problem. It's so overwhelmed to the point that I decided to walk out of my room and sit in the living room sofa instead. Cos i know i tend to me more emotional when i'm alone than when i'm in front of ppl. In the living room, there's my bro who is too busy with the computer to even take notice of me. Thank god. Then I took this time to really quieten down my heart to talk to god.

Outcome:
All those problems that I had swallowed down b4, it's decided to let it stay down there as i really do not want to bring up the past anymore. I really want to put this behind me and move on to start a new me when facing with problems. (So, ppl who is reading my blog, dun come asking me what the problems are). I have learned not to swallow down the problems but to face my problems courageously like Nehemiah in the Bible. I wan to apply what I have learned today. But it's going to be tough as to achieve that, I must first overcome the reasons why I chose to swallow in the first place.

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OKays.. I just want to end off by saying..... I'M REALLY HUNGRY!!! I should have listen to candace to buy food and eat dinner instead of playing uno cards with the girls who have alr eaten their dinner. =( going to dig the fridge for food now. tata!

2009-10-02T15:01:00.004+08:00

This is not the first time alr....
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That I lost my HP... =(

2009-09-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

Your grace is sufficient by Martin J. Nystrom:

"Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect
When I am weak
All that I cling to
I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me"

It's 4 more days to sch reopens. Have I spend my holidays fruitfully? Or have I slack my precious time away?

2009-09-30T10:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, i went to watch 'Accident' with jas and ck at plaze sing. It was me who pick that movie. but i realise it was a stupid choice. To me, I felt it was a waste of money on that movie. I almost fell asleep in the middle on the movie! and there were parts here and there that I dun understand. And the ending was like ... -.-ll imagine someone stab u in the stomach, then as u were holding onto the knife, u start to flashback abt ur past then THE END! -.-ll i rate this movie 2 stars out of 5.

Anyway, after the movie, we went to justacia to have our dinner. Had a great time with jas and ck. I also met my secondary friend melissa at just acia. haha..

2009-09-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

I started out with full conviction.
But, the race had hardly begin.
Yet, i have already been hit with setbacks.
And i know i need the perserverance to carry on the race.
May God give me the strength to do so.
Amen.

2009-09-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

woah.. this week is surely an hectic week sia.

21 Sept (Mon): X2 Family Day (2.30pm to 5.30pm)
22-23 Sept (Tues & Wed): Bible Character Studies (9am to 3pm)
22 Sept (Tues): Watch movie (4.40pm)
23 Sept (Wed): Vision Night (6pm-9pm)
24 Sept (Thurs): Swimming + discussion / sharing session (9am-8pm)
25 Sept(Fri): Shepherding

2009-09-20T18:17:00.002+08:00

This hols, i went out with my secondary sch friends. we went to watch G-Force 3D.

A short description of the movie: It is a comedy adventure about the latest evolution of a covert government program to train animals to work in espionage. Armed with the latest high-tech spy equipment, these highly trained guinea pigs discover that the fate of the world is in their paws. Tapped for the G-Force are guinea pigs Darwin, the squad leader determined to succeed at all costs; Blaster, an outrageous weapons expert with tons of attitude and a love for all things extreme; and Juarez, a sexy martial arts pro; plus the literal fly-on-the-wall reconnaissance expert, Mooch, and a star-nosed mole, Speckles, the computer and information specialist.

Below are pictures of us in our 3d specs. =)

Fione.Melissa.Deborah

Fione.Melissa.Deborah.Melissa

Through this outing and interaction, it truely shows how each of us has grow from secondary school girls to young and 'slightly more' mature ladies =) Haha. I'm glad I went for this gathering.^^

2009-09-14T22:41:00.007+08:00

ARMY OPEN HOUSE 2009:

One of the police dogs. haha. =)

My perfect score card for the riffle shooting =)

Haha. There's nth much left for me to say. xD But i really enjoyed myself there at the Army Open House 2009. I was bubbling with excitement running around at the Pasir Laba Camp. I had a great time spending time with my family too. ^^

2009-09-14T22:22:00.004+08:00

i don't know how much longer can i hold out...
but i know, if it's not for GOD, i would have break down long ago...

a heavy burden in my heart... who can lighten it besides GOD. xD

anyway, here's smt i watch in one of the taiwan dramas:

人家说：就算你没有知识，也有常识。没有常识，也有看电视。但是，电视不可以看太久，因为看太久会有近视。

English translation: Even if you are not knowledgeable, at least have some common sense. If don't have common sense, at least got watch tv. BUT, cannot watch tv too long, because will have short-sightedness

HAHAHAHA! funny ma? lol ....

2009-09-07T18:03:00.000+08:00

I have been singing this song since secondary one. but it was only a few days ago, i found meaning in it.

By the power of Your Love:

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I’ve found in You
Lord I’ve come to know
The weakenesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

~ chorus ~
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

(repeat chorus twice)

And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

2009-08-14T17:14:00.005+08:00

Just posting some pictures... About 2 weeks ago, i went to istana park when it's open to public! =) cos the last time i went to istana park was years ago! lol. But anyway, that day, i had enough time to spend at plaza singapura before heading off to meet my sister at dhoby ghaut mrt. ahh yes! i remb that day.. it was the day of festival of praise. =) ya.. so, since i got time to kill, i decided to go istana park as so qiao, it's open on to public on that day too. ^^

here's some pictures i have taken...

YESH! Look who's beside me. MUAHAHAHA!!! I met the mr president there and i'm surprise he's willing to take a picture with me. lol =]

Anyway, festival of praise was super cool. the praise and worship were very overwhelming. but i'm unable to catch the sermon part as i can't keep up with the ang moh's english. aww man! maybe i need to brush up my english skills.

i have a great time chatting with khoon fai!!... Ah fai!! thanks for ur help that day. Appreciated it alot. =D

2009-07-24T21:50:00.007+08:00

Wednesday- 22July

I went to watch harry potter movie at..... GV GOLD CLASS @ VIVOCITY!!!!!!
1 ticket cost $28. =l Bought a wizard combo for the movie as well. see picture below.. so cute hor the combo set. haha.

The below pictures here show the GV gold class seats. woah.. so huge and comfy.. too comfy that it make ppl want to sleep. the leg rest can be lifted up to horizontal level also. lol

No jacket? No sweat!! Cos blankets are given in GV gold class. Haha. See the white circle in the middle of the table?? Press that button and a gv staff will attend to your needs. haha.

though this is my 2nd time in GV gold class, i still act like i first time in that theatre. haha..

okays. about the movie... hmm, the harry potter 6 not much action compared to previous harry potters. the plot is good (duh- it's adapted from the storybook itself) but i was hoping to see more actions instead. haha..

during the movie, one guy fell asleep and was snoring loudly away. so disturbing. i feel like throwing popcorns at him. haha. perhaps the seats really too comfy le. lol.

2009-07-23T22:43:00.005+08:00

This year NDP 09 parade is so much interesting and better compared to previous years. Haha. This year is the first time I watched the performances and understand the meaning behind the performances. lol. the pre-parade was also entertaining, depicting how singapore was founded and etc. Below are some pictures taken during NE show 2. Opps! My dad last min got tickets to the parade. I pon my duty so that I'm able to watch the parade with my siblings. =)

2009-07-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

“I am sure that God who began the good work within you will keep right on helping you grow in His grace until His task within you is finally finished on that day when Jesus Christ returns” (Philippians 1:6 LB).

It takes years for us to grow to adulthood, and it takes a full season for fruit to mature and ripen. The same is true for the fruit of the Spirit. The development of Christlike character cannot be rushed. Spiritual growth, like physical growth, takes time.

When you try to ripen fruit quickly, it loses its flavor. In the United States, tomatoes are usually picked unripened so they won’t bruise during shipping to the stores. Then, before they are sold, these green tomatoes are sprayed with CO2 gas to turn them red instantly. Gassed tomatoes are edible, but they are no match to the flavor of a vine-ripened tomato that is allowed to mature slowly.

While we worry about how fast we grow, God is concerned about how strong we grow. God views our lives from and for eternity, so he is never in a hurry.

Christian author Lane Adams once compared the process of spiritual growth to the strategy the Allies used during World War II to liberate islands in the South Pacific. First they would “soften up” an island, weakening the resistance by shelling the enemy strongholds with bombs from offshore ships.

Next, a small group of Marines would invade the island and establish a “beachhead”—a tiny fragment of the island that they could control. Once the beachhead was secured, they would begin the long process of liberating the rest of the island, one bit of territory at a time. Eventually the entire island would be brought under control, but not without some costly battles.

Adams drew this parallel: Before Christ invades our lives at conversion, he sometimes has to “soften us up” by allowing problems we can’t handle. While some open their lives to Christ the first time he knocks on the door, most of us are resistant and defensive. Our pre-conversion experience is Jesus saying, “Behold, I stand at the door and bomb!”

The moment you open yourself to Christ, God gets a beachhead in your life. You may think you have surrendered all of your life to him, but the truth is, there is a lot to your life that you aren’t even aware of. You can only give God as much of you as you understand at that moment. That’s okay.

Once Christ is given a beachhead, he begins the campaign to take over more and more territory until all of your life is completely his. There will be struggles and battles, but the outcome will never be in doubt. God has promised that “he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion” (Philippians 1:6 NIV).

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Am i rushing to reach maturity? perhaps so. that's why sometimes it backfires.

2009-07-18T10:48:00.002+08:00

i know it's hard..

but i'll just have to keep on trying...

and i know nothing is impossible with god's help

unless i decided to give up halfway...

2009-07-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

The Nicene Creed is the most widely accepted and used brief statements of the Christian Faith

An Adaptation of The Nicene Creed (with scriptural references):

We believe in ONE God, (Deuteronomy 6: 4, Ephesians 4: 6)

Father, (Matthew 6: 9)

Almighty, (Exodus 6: 3)

Maker of Heaven and Earth, (Genesis 1: 1)

and of all things visible and invisible. (Colossians 1: 15-16)

And in ONE Lord Jesus Christ, (Acts 11: 17)

Son of God, (Mathew 14: 33; 16: 16)

Only-Begotten, (John 1: 18; 3: 16)

Begotten of the Father before all ages. (John 1: 2)

Light from Light; (Psalm 27: 1; John 8: 12; Matthew 17: 2,5)

True God from True God; (John 17: 1-5)

Begotten, not made; (John 1: 18)

of one essence with the Father (John 10: 30)

through whom all things were made; (Hebrews 1: 1-2)

Who for us men and for our salvation (1 Timothy 2: 4-5)

came down from heaven, (John 6: 33,35)

and was incarnate of the Holy Spirit and the Virgin Mary (Luke 1: 35)

and became man. (John 1: 14)

And He was crucified for us (Mark 15: 25; 1 Corinthians 15: 3)

under Pontius Pilate, (John 19: 6)

suffered, (Mark 8: 31)

and was buried. (Luke 23: 53; 1 Corinthians 15: 4)

And on the third day He rose again, according to the Scriptures, (Luke 24: 1 1 Corinthians 15: 4)

and ascended into heaven, (Luke 24: 51; Acts 1: 10)

and sits at the right hand of the Father; (Mark 16: 19; Acts 7: 55)

and He shall come again with glory (Matthew 24: 27)

to judge the living and the dead; (Acts 10: 42; 2 Timothy 4: 1)

Whose Kingdom shall have no end. (2 Peter 1: 11)

And in the Holy Spirit, (John 14: 26)

Lord, (Acts 5: 3-4)

Giver of Life, (Genesis 1: 2)

Who proceeds from the Father [and the Son]; (John 15: 26)

Who with the Father and the Son together is worshiped and glorified; (Matthew 3: 16-17)

Who spoke through the prophets. (1 Samuel 19: 20; Ezekiel 11: 5,13)

In one, (Matthew 16: 18)

holy, (1 Peter 2: 5,9)

Church. (Acts 2: 42; Ephesians 2: 19-22)

We acknowledge one baptism for the remission of sins. (Ephesians 4: 5; Acts 2: 38)

We look for the resurrection of the dead, (John 11: 24; 1 Corinthians 15: 12-49; Hebrews 6: 2; Revelation 20: 5)

and the life in the age to come. (Mark 10: 29-30)

2009-07-15T22:41:00.005+08:00

ytd night: bad night (couldn't sleep well. unstable emotions, caught a cold and stomach ache throughout the night =x)

this morning: bad morning (still having cold. kept sneezing away..)

afternoon: bad afternoon (stomach starts to pain again. more visits to the toilet too. =s)

tonight: predicted another bad night (as stomach continue to pain....)

it's okays! i believe it will shine after rain (雨过天晴)! Right God? =p

GAMBETTE!

2009-07-12T11:38:00.003+08:00

ytd was the NE1 parade.

it's was chaotic, messy, horrible, terrible and incorrigible. =X

everything was going fine and well. as usual, i was super hyper and excited to join in the celebration with the primary 5 students and my fellow ushers.

BUT.. at the last moment when the show is about it end, it start raining HEAVILY!. the poncho heartware has given me is useless. the plastic hood torn. part of the poncho is also torn. i even had to go to touch community ppl (the ones i/c of motivators) and ask them for a poncho. None of my heartware leaders are seen during that time. -.-ll but anyway, the bottomline was that i was totally drench from head to toe. even when i finally went into shelter, i could feel my hair dripping drips of water. lol.

when the whole parade end, my school (the one i taking - elias park pri) had to wait for other school to go off first b4 our turn. when it's finally our turn, the whole sch was so gan chiong under the rain that they all chiong for the stairwells and staircase. plus army personnel keep giving s diff instructions. so frustrating. just wan slap their faces. in the end, 1 class was drifted away from the rest of the school. and that 1 one class got 10 missing student (class: 5 honesty) + 4 extra students from other classes (class: 5 respect). actually is 5 missing students. cos after the teachers cross check, they realise 5 of students from class 5 honesty was actally with the rest of the sch. so the quick response force (QRF) was activated to find the missing 5 students.

2 were found in the toilet, 3 were found mixed into some other schools. oh well, everyone was wearing red and its easily to get mix up with other schools. on the way home the whole time i was super cold. when i finally reach home, the first thing i did was to head for a warm bath... =)

after shower, my head start to spin... got headache, think is because i under rain too long or smt..

even now is still spinning and spinning.... =(

2009-07-05T17:20:00.008+08:00

ytd was a super long, busy, dying and tiring day. ytd was combine rehearsal 3 where family and friends are invited to watch the rehearsal. yupyup. i'm referring to my ndp duty as a usher.

YEAHH!! I have survive ytd! Woohoo! Not only did my grp overcome the 'delicious' food, we didn't let anyone spoil our day and we put many smile on people's face. In addition, some of grp mates really surprised me with their exceed-expectation energy level especially those near my gateway (who also happen to 'steal' my customer...~_~").

God really blesses me ytd. in the afternoon, the army side run out of water.. as usual the ushers are always trying to tap on army's water. so our water bottles cannot be refill and for a while, i didn't have much water to drink. scorching under the sun with water running low, still need to welcome the public loudly. I was feeling giddy but heng never faint. haha. then when the water came ytd, it's cold water and it really quenches my thrist. usually their water not cold de. lol. plus ytd i never met with any troublesome public. =D

And also the weather.. though it's hot and sunny, god also did send some wind. =) my partner, eunice and i work along tgt well too. =) and really thank god for the suber hyper and vibe grp such that even though i'm tired and dying under the sun, my grp energy lvl is still flowing abundantly as we encourage each other to press on and add oil (jia you)! PLUS!!! many times, we manage to go marina square de mac to buy drinks and eat ice cream!!

then even though i didn't get a chance to watch the parade (disappointed) cos i was posted outside the whole time, i still had fun with my grp in carrying out our duties. Oh, and i manage to catch the fireworks too. =)

tired and sleepy....

2009-07-03T21:24:00.005+08:00

it's time for some updates!!! =)

last monday, ig had a celebration for stephen's and jeff's birthday. See below pictures:

then last wednesday, my family finally spend some quality time together. together with my 2 cousins, christian and inneke, we went to mind cafe for lunch and played games till 6pm! the games we played include ugly ugly doll, some dinosaur and bone game (super fun), some animal card games, some meh meh game, truth and dare stacker and etc.. can't really remember all the games name. haha. it's been quite some time since we had such fun as a family. those busy with work, busy with work. those busy with school, busy with school. those busy with bf/gf, busy with bf/gf (yes. you jie! dun turn around). those busy with ig/cca/fyp, busy with ig/cca/fyp. those busy with church and cg, busy with church and cg. those busy with ndp, busy with ndp. and the list goes on... it's like finally we all can have a day off from our busy schedule to sit, chat, eat, relax and play games! =D

2 later days (friday), i went to fashion bar at clarke quay for drinking with my sister and 2 cousins. oh, i must admit, this time i drank stronger type of drinks but i dun seem to be as seh as the last time i went clubbing. lol. here's the list of drinks i drank: lychee martini, screaming multiple orgas, margarita strawberry, snowball and bacardi 151 and heinkein. Actually this list of drink is shared among the 4 of us. so dun assume that i drank one cup of each!! i will die! lol. hmm, i met alan, my attachment supervisor in singpost at clarke quay too. so qiao!! he looks more carefree and relax when he's wearing just normal shirt and pants. i guess it's bcos i never see him wear like that b4 ba. haha.

the following day (saturday), i went for michelle's bday at sentosa. Cool. My first time bday celebration for ppl at sentosa chalet there. Haha. truely enjoyed myself there though something happen at the end on the way home. =)

haha.. what a busy week i had last week.

2009-06-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

i was looking through my previous post which i realise i didn't publish any post in the month of march 2009. was i really that busy to even update 1 post?? haha. come to think of it, yeah.. this year march was a busy one for me. weekdays attachment, weekends camp + service. there's also others like my birthday celebration and family/ friends outings and etc... Haha.

Anyway, i just want share something which i learned today and it think it's very important especially in communication.

To really communicate, you must give up three things:

1. You must give up your assumptions. We get into trouble when we start assuming we understand the meaning of what people say to us. The truth is everything you hear goes through a filter. Your filter is determined by your past experiences and your unique personality. You may not be hearing what they are really saying. Therefore, it is smart (and safe) to ask for clarification: "Listen before you answer. If you don't, you are being stupid and insulting" (Proverbs 18:13 TEV).

2. You must give up your accusations. You never get your point across by being cross. Anger and sarcasm only make people defensive and that kills communication.

There are four common forms of accusation:

• Exaggerating, such as making sweeping generalities like "You never," or "You always."
• Labeling, such as derogatory name-calling. Labeling never changes anyone. It only reinforces the negative behavior.
• Playing historian, such as bringing up past failures, mistakes, and broken promises.
• Asking loaded questions, ones that really can't be answered, such as, "Can't you do anything right?"The Bible says, "Do not use harmful words, but only helpful words, the kind that build up and provide what is needed, so that what you say will do good to those who hear you" (Ephesians 4:29 TEV).

3. You must give up your apprehensions. Fear prevents honest communication. It causes us to conceal our true feelings and fail to confront the real issues. The two most common apprehensions are: the fear of failure and the fear of rejection. But when you face your fear and risk being honest, then real communication can happen. Freedom is the result of openness. Jesus said, "You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free" (John 8:32 TEV).

So fione, jia you to working towards great communication with family and friends! =)

2009-05-26T21:58:00.005+08:00

i hugged felicia chin!!!!

yes! it's true!!! i hugged her!!! lol

went to plaza singapura to watch angels and demon. quite a nice movie but some parts also quite chim to understand. haha. anyway, that day (sunday) was the the event called "the big idea". See below picture =) :

Yup. that's the event i'm talking about. It's held outside plaza sing at the open space there. As we still had time before our movie start, my sister and i went to squeeze in with the crowd to watch the event take place. it's was super hot and squeezy with everyone pushing here and there.

apparently, the artist were there to promote their drama "The Ultimatum" which will be debut tmr 9pm. So there were a total of 13 actors and actresses which includes fann wang, zoe tay, tay ping hui, elvin ng, felicia chin and etc...

After 30++ mins of squeezing in the hot crowd, my sister and i decided to leave the crowd. We were nearly behind the stage when suddenly a large crowd started running towards us. Apparently!!!! they are going to queue to go up on stage to shake hands with the actors and actress. as i was quite near the queue, i decided to join in as well. LOL.. so in the end, i shake hands with all the 13 actors and actresses on stage and hug felicia chinnnn!!!. =D

too bad no photos were taken when i'm up on stage. my sister didn't want to squeeze in back into the crowd at the front stage. haha.

2009-05-20T19:29:00.006+08:00

last saturday 16 may 2009.. i went for the flag day for hope church to raise funds for the needy students as bursury award to them. the girls grp decided to help out at outram park mrt and we split up into pair with me partnering my shepherd, ruthhhhhhh!!! =) haha

So, ruth and i decided to stand in front of Health Science Authority (HSA) to ask for donations. It was cloudy initially. But as the sun starts to shine with the clouds drifting away, ruth didn't want to stand under sun. so we cross the road to seek shelter as well as to "change our donations spot".But the crowd accross the road wasn't as much as the crowd in front of HSA. So i told ruth that i didn't mind the sun. i'm ok to go back to the sun and stand in front of HSA. after all, i was once a NPCC cadet who had many drill pactises under the hot sun before.

As i was standing under the sun, back to in front of HSA (ruth was still across the road), i didn't feel hot or anything. I felt perfectly ok.. perhaps just a little hungry. Suddenly, I head starts to feel giddy. I thought it was just a normal sudden giddy feeling which i usually experience when i stand up from a squatting position. Thus, I sat down on the ledge to rest awhile. i'm still under the sun..... however, instead of feeling better, i felt worst!.. i felt the fainting giddiness!!! and the next thing i know, i fainted!!! BLACK OUT!!!!!

i woke up but in semi-conscious by the noises of the crowd around me. their voices were muffled and i couldn't really hear what they are talking. all i can see was black and white. i was very scared at that time. i was like god.. please help me.. but yet my mind cannot think clearly also.. in fact my mind couldn't think much. i remb hearing one offering me guava. but i confirm with ruth and she said no one offer guava to me.. only sweets and drinks.. lol.. what was i hearing.

As a first aider, i know that's heat exhaustion. i know i had to seek shelter immediately. in my semi-conscious state, i tried to get up, walk up the stairs to chiong in HSA. but i remb walking abt 2-3 steps then i dao on the ground again. it seems like i no strength to get up. my eyes can't open much either. come to think of it, i should have ask ruth to fu me as i walk... lol

anyway, the next thing i know, i felt myself being lifted up. some one was carrying me. i couldn't see his face.. all i think he was wearing a blue shirt.. and according to ruth, he is a blood donor as he was seen walking out of HSA with a bandage at his arm. i black out when he carried me.

by the time i woke up, i only see ruth and edison (a brother from hope church- ns grp) beside me. edision was wearing an orange shift. apparently, the blue shirt passerby carried me halfway, then pass me on to edison then the passerby left. so sad.. i wasn't able to thank the paserby.

HSA staff wanted to call ambulance for me!! lol.. SGH is just like beside HSA. haha.. but i refuse to seek medical treatment from hospital as i know fainting is actually nothing much one. i know the reason behind my faint.. never eat lunch and no water + stand under sun = doom to faint though i ate a piece of cake for breakfast. edison (SCDF medic) asked me if i have knock my head or hurt my back.. but i totally have no idea about it. my mind was close to blank the whole time. now i abit regretted to refuse medical help from hospital. the past few days, been feeling giddy a little.. i don't if that has anything to do with my fainting incident...

Anyway.... i really thank god for sending edison and the blue shirt passerby to come to my aid that day. if not, only god knows what would happen then. i am really thankful to these 2 guys for helping me- an unknown girl to them...

that was my first public time i fainted in public and i hope it will be my last as well

2009-05-20T18:24:00.003+08:00

everyone knows that suicide is a sin. but discussions have been going on whether god forgives a suicider and still welcome the person into his kingdom or not. some of us believes that as long as one repents, god will still allow the person into his kingdom. others who are being taught with regards to this topic in their churches said a firm no. below is something a friend of mine send to me..

"I think I can show you verses which say that it is a sin to kill yourself. None say it in those words, however. First God tells us not to murder. He does not say don't murder anyone who doesn't want to die, He says don't murder. Here is my point. Is it okay to kill someone if during the fight with them, they come out and tell you to kill them their life sucks anyway? Of course not, it is still murder in God's eyes. So does it make any difference just because you want to die? I don't think so. Now let me give you a few of those verses:

(1 Corinthians 6:19-20 NIV) [19] Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; [20] you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

(1 Corinthians 3:16-17 NIV) [16] Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? [17] If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God&'s temple is sacred, and you are that temple.

I think those are pretty clear. If you are a Christian your life and for that matter your body are no longer your own, they were bought with the blood of Christ. Here are two more passages:

(Psalm 39:4 NIV) Show me, O LORD, my life's end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life.

(Psalm 139:15-16 NIV) [15] My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, [16] your eyes saw my unformed body.

All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
You might be asking what those two have to do with suicide, they don't even talk about death. Yes they do. Both of them talk about God knowing how long your life will be. How does God know? He knows because it is up to Him to decide. When a person kills them self, they are playing god in their own life. They are taking the decision away from God. Now I ask you; is that a sin? "

Nope. This is not written by my friend. she too, was given this by another friend who found it online. So the I in the above text does not refer to my friend.

As clearly stated above, i guess the only sin that god cannot give is suicide. But what's been done cannot be undone. So instead of focusing whether the person will go to heaven or not (you alr know the facts), why not focus on the root of the problem that cause the person to suicide? I think it all boils down to our relationship with god.

From the same website my friend give to me..

"Did you accept Him as Lord and Savior of your life? Or did you accept Him as genie in the sky who will take care of all your problems? You are right, God will not instantly do away with all your problems. Some He might do that with, but that is not what He offers us. He does offer hope and comfort, but much more than that.

Part of your problem seems to be that you have no idea what life is suppose to be about. It is not about having fun and being comfortable, it is about having a relationship with God. Until you have that close relationship you will not be able to know what God's purpose for your life is. I can't tell you what it is, because I don't know, but I do know that He has a purpose for you. Maybe that purpose is to clean toilets in the subway and witness to the homeless people there. Or maybe it is a much "nicer" purpose. I don't know, but I know that if God did not have a purpose for your life, you would not take in another breath. See God is not powerless to kill you. He can take you life any time He wants to, so if you live another day, it is because God has ordained it. It is time you got your eyes off of yourself and onto Christ and see why He wants you on this earth."

So, do we all know our purpose in god? what's our identity in christ? We always part take the elements in cg/churches for holy comm. Do we truely understand the meaning behind those elements that jesus had sacrified in change for our lives? These are some questions that we can ponder and think abt...

2009-05-14T22:43:00.006+08:00

MY MOTHER'S DAY DINNER CELEBRATION!! @ Prima Restuarant
haha.. after my sister's graduation celebration... =)

YumYUm... the food looks yummy. =D

My favourite veggie. =D

Eeee.. dun really like this noodle. =X

Mother's day cake -> chocolate tiramisu =) my favourite cake =p

The two mothers.. LOL.. my mum and my aunt.. =)

My family picture. Opps! someone is missing from the picture!!! where's my baby cousin evelyn?? =X

2009-05-14T22:24:00.003+08:00

Last sunday 10th may is my sister graduation day!!! she is finally getting her degree!!!! haha
Below are some pictures taken after her graduation ceremony...

Our Whole Family Picture =D

i still remb i was having gastric pain when the photos are taken =X

Me?? as a future graduate?? LOL

That's all for now.. later will be posting up mother's day celebration =)

2009-05-09T23:43:00.002+08:00

Cool! today's devotion is based on my favourite verse:

"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13 NIV).

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Here's something I would like to share with everyone. =D I feel that some of the "can"-mandments are very encouraging. =D
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So often we think of commandments as a list of don'ts. Instead of focusing on what we can't do, let's start looking at what we can with this list of ten "can"-mandments!

1. Instead of thinking, "It will never fly," think, "Through God's strength, it's worth the try!"

2. Replace the thought, "It won't work," with faith that, with God's strength, it will work!

3. When someone says, "It's never been done before," respond by saying, "That means God's giving us the opportunity to be the first."

4. "What if we fail?" What if we fail to try, knowing God says we can do everything through Him who gives us strength?

5. "We don't have the money." Where God guides, he provides so that we can do everything he has called us to do.

6. "We don't have the time!" Perhaps God is telling us to re-evaluate our priorities as we rely upon his direction and strength.

7. "We don't have the expertise." Maybe not, but we can learn as God directs our path.

8. "It's been tried before." But we're wiser now because we know we can do everything when we rely on God's strength instead of our own.

9. If someone says, "There are so many problems with it," respond by saying, "Yet, there are so many possibilities when we're trusting God instead of ourselves."

10. Instead of saying, "It's not working out," say instead, "Let's try it one more time, but this time focused on God and the truth that we can do this through Him who gives us strength."

"Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse" (Philippians 4:8 MSG).

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Encouraging right?? maybe not all, but definitely there are some that is.

2009-05-08T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, been very busy recently especially when is just school reopens. Final Year Project, CareGroup, Dental Appoinment, Red Cross IG, NYAA Club, School Life Activities Fiesta and etc... Practically almost everyday I stayed back in school. lol. Is this the life of a year 3 student?

Haha. Finally dental thing and SLA have been settled at least. 2 weeks ago, i went to the dental clinic to remove my 2 up & down right side of my wisdom tooth.. the dentist inject the numbness thing 4 times into my gums. that's was super duper pain. *confession: i burst out crying at the operating room. lol* following next few days was swelling very big!.. People see me all ask me what's wrong with my mouth. Haha. yesterday I went back to the clinic to have my stitches remove. hmm, every seems to be healing fine. YAY!!!! the nightmare have finally pass.

Yesterday was a super bad day for me.

1. I forget that ytd got lab lesson.. i thought it was today (oh well, today also got lab lesson. lol) I wore sandals to school.

2. I forget to bring my thermometer esp after my mum has search high and low for that thermometer.. i left it on my table. And worst thing is that my ytd faci is very strict went it comes to such things.

3. I make alot of stupid mistakes in my ppt slide.. there's goes my daily grade! *this is the most depression one!*

4. when I reach the national dental clinic.. I realise I forgot to bring my that medical card... spend time listening to the nurse lecture =C

5. I totally forgot abt dental payment.. How embarassing can that me! *this is the stupidest thing i could forget!*

6. After dental clinic... I dunno why my stomach gets super hungry... then slowly it lead to pain.. I saw this guy suddenly pick up his bag from the floor.. i thought he going board down liao.. so i walk up to him there stand n wait (the 2 seats there)... in the end.. the whole time he in mrt keep carrying his bag then put down then carry again... keep doing this until it reach bedok where he finally board down =.=ll

7. when I finally took over his seat... I sat down and fell asleep... went all the way to pasir ris =.=ll overshot my mrt stop.

haiz.. one obstacles after another. But anyway, as I reflect over this incident & as ruth reminded me that god allow things to happen for a reason, i started to think that perhaps god wants me to learn to be a more responsible person. perhaps god is trying to show me the consequence of rushing through things (i kind of overslept..wake up, did a quick pack and rush out of the house). In fact, recently I feel that there are some areas in my life which I have been rushing through it. Perhaps... it's time to take things slowly....

2009-04-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

being sick is no good... no good at all..
sick will lead to weak mind
with a weak mind, thoughts can anyhow fly in all sorts of direction.

is that why i'm feeling restless and demoralize the past few days???

2009-04-18T11:19:00.010+08:00

lol.. i didn't have time to update abt my birthday as well... oh well, i will let the pictures do the talking.. a picture speaks 1000 words right?? haha

Don't be surprise that there are 2 birthday cakes.. my family are celebrating 2 birthdays after all. me and my mum same birthday date!!! SO COOL RIGHT!!!!.. haha

My whole family with the 2 birthday cakes =D

My whole family + my cousin (cynthia)

Making a wish before blowing of candles.. "Ma, why u staring at the cam for?" Haha =p

*PHEEEEW* Candles died out.

Cutting of birthday cakes

My birthday gift =D i love the big bear bear.... *muacks*

And i name the bear bear "hope". haha. =D

My sister and I with Hope =)

Not to forget my cousin and I with Hope =D

where's my bro and i pic?? didn't get to take.. cos after eating the cake, he went back to watch anime in his computer. =.=ll thanks bro.

pisst!.. now time to kope my birthday pics from daphne when the unit celebrated my birthday during the contemporary generation camp. =)))

2009-04-18T10:36:00.004+08:00

WOOT!!!!.. it's finally the end of my attachment (9 apr). so busy that i didnt have time for my blog, family, friends an etc recently...

my reflection for my attachment:
this attachment had been a fruitful one to me. it had been a great exposure for me to understand the logistic industry. (haha. standard line in most reflection reports) but it's true!!! working in singpost, i got the opportunity to see the whole of the work processes. besides, my scope there was to study their operations and to improve their existing operations and to come up with training manuals used for courier induction. so cool right??? haha..

oh well, i definitely enjoyed my working experience there with my bosses (Alan, Peggy and Alvin) and my always-trying-to-irritate-me partner, RAYMOND TAN!!!! haiz.. i'm starting to miss working there. when jonathan, the hr guy in singpost, suggested that we go back to singpost to continue work even during school period, at the back of my mind was like "siao ar? still want us to ot after attachment contract" but now come to think of it, i dun really mind after all. LOL. Frickle minded me----

last week sunday, i brought my whole family for hope church easter service... i'm so touch by god's prescenes and the way he touch my mum's heart. i pray that god will continue to work on my family's lives and bring them closer to him. =) [lazy to go into details =p] anyway.....
during last week service, i knew the sermon had touch my friend as well. this is so great!!!! god spoke to him through the sermon (message is about forgiveness) which helps him to let go of his current situation that he's facing now. well i'm glad that the message had touch my friend, though he keep insisting it's councelled instead of touch. but still... continued to open up your heart to god and i'm sure you will experience him more in future. =) JIA YOU!!!

yup.. so after service we went to popeye at singapore flyer there to eat dinner. =) After dinner, we went to a christian pub!! So cool right?? didn't know got such a pub in singapore. not that it's meant for christians only... it's because this pub is open by 2 christian siblings and the songs they played are very christ-like songs. =D below are some pictures taken...

the starting of work...

2009-02-21T11:57:00.001+08:00

haha.. finally started a week of work and now it's the weekends!!!! wrote this during my free time at work.. lol..

Intern at Singpost

Day one:
We report to work at 9am. Meet Jonathon Lum from the HR department. Had a short orientation briefing where they brief us regard the company’s history. After that, met up with the big bosses where they mentioned to us our job scope and duties. The four of us were then split up into two different teams. For me, I will be working with Raymond (intern) and the logistic team to come up with a better improvise training manual for the courier team. My supervisor is Alan Foo, the operations manager of signpost logistic team. He seems to be funny and a bit the bo-chap type of guy. Everything also sui bian one. As he was busy and unable to brief us with our duties, he actually release us for early lunch break (11.30am- usually is 12.30pm) and told us to come back ard 2pm! LOL. More than 2 hrs of lunch break (usual is 1hr only)!!!! Haha. When we are back from lunch, he gave us some training materials/ manuals to read and again... briefing explain our job scope. It was actually a short courier handbook and a few pages of the training materials that the courier team has to go through. Raymond and I actually read finish the materials by ard 5pm. As knock off time is 6pm, we had to wait for the time to reach 6pm before we can actually leave the office. So we spend the rest of the time chatting and slacking ard which was quite boring.

Day two:
Reach office ard 8.30am... by the way, my office hours is actually 8.30am to 6pm! On day two, we had the chance to follow the courier team out on their deliveries and collections. Raymond tag along to the courier that went woodlands while I tag along with the courier man who went to changi and bedok that area there. Sat in a speedpost van. Haha.. bet u guys thought that I took the postman motorcycle right?? Lol. Nope, I sat in a van. *YAWN*the courier team have a pretty boring job sia. Whole day only make deliveries and collection. Ard 9am, we left to make our first trip of deliveries and collections. We finish them ard 12.20pm. As we only need to be back at Post Office Centre at 2pm, my that courier man wanted to go home eat lunch with his family. He even said that he want send me home for my lunch as well then around 1.10pm come pick me up as we both stayed near each other. LOL. But in the end, his wife didn’t cook, my mum not at home, then we went to bedok market there and he treat me to eat roti-prata. Haha. On the way back to the office, I fell asleep in the van and the courier man was damn good la.. When I woke up ard 1.45pm, I was like “eh, why we not moving?” It was then I realise instead of going straight back to the office, seeing me asleep, he actually pack his van at the hdb flat beside the post office centre, under a big shady tree for me to continue sleeping!!!! LOL!!!! So after I woke up, he then drive the van back to the office where he needs to do the next round of collections and deliveries. Again, I tagged along with him during the 2nd round. Came back to office ard 5.30pm. Met up with Raymond, Alan and Peggy and we discuss our “findings” from the courier trip till 6pm before heading home with Raymond. Oh.. forget to add in, as the courier man and I stay near each other house, he even offer to send me home. Hehe. But too bad, I had to stay in the office until 6pm before going home.

Day three:
Again, arrive at office ard 8.30am. Noticed that Alan has not yet arrive, so Raymond and I decided to just go ahead and continues our discussion regarding the courier trip we both went yesterday. We even jot it down in my laptop in Microsoft word. Typical rp student. Haha. After our discussion, it’s already 9.45am and we noticed Alan is still not in office. Not knowing what to do, we slack ard a bit. Haha. But we were getting bore with nothing to do. So we went up to peggy and inform her that we got nothing to do and Alan is not ard as well. She then mentioned that Alan took half day off and will be in office only at ard 1pm. Lol. Peggy then arranged for us to join the speedpost centre ppl where they brief us what the couriers have to look out for in their vehicles before setting off. After that, again, we are left with nothing to do. So I watch the Louis koo movie ‘connected’ once more while waiting for time to pass. Finally Alan arrive and we went for lunch together. We includes Raymond, Alan, Peggy and I. Alan introduce us the nearby hawker... one which they name it the birdshit hawker as there got a lot of birds on top of their ledge. And sometimes u sit there, can see the shit drop! Lol. But he say there the food all not nice.. so if we want to go there, only go there to drink kopi. Haha. As we walk further down the road, he then introduces us to another hawker where we ate our lunch, he says the mixed rice there cannot make it. The best one is fish porridge, ban mian or hokkien mee. Lol. But I ate char guo tiao today. After lunch, we went back to the office and observed how hubbing is done in post office centre. After that, Alan gave us more read up materials to read. OMG!!! The materials are so boring. Almost fell asleep reading it. Raymond can tell that my head was dozing off many times. Haha. But finally we manage to read all 6 revisions documents. Then..... it’s FREE TIME AGAIN!!!!. Nothing to do.. now waiting for 6pm to strike...

Day four:

Again as usual, Alan came in ard 9am++ work while Raymond and I came ard 8.30am. lol. This morning, we discussed what information we have to put in the handbook that we going to make. After that, we have some free time to slack till lunch. Ate lunch at the kopithiam.. Eee, exceeded my budget for lunch. Haha. Tmr must eat cheaper food liao. After lunch, came back do my own stuff. Went to find out more about youth Olympic game and even register myself to be a volunteer there. Seeing us nothing to do, peggy then asked us to help her with admin stuff which we did. Lol. That’s so not under my job scope. But nevermine la.. alan also never give us do anything.. so is ok la. Lol.

Day five:

Surprisingly Alan came to work quite early. Haha. Apparently he has a meeting to attend at 9am. LOL. No wonder... As he attended for meeting the whole morning, there was nothing for Raymond and I had to do. Peggy also attended that meeting, so we can’t turn to her for work. Haha. So yesterday morning, I end up reviewing the previous day cg lesson, listened to some praise and worship songs, play cs and etc...haha. But after lunch we had to meet mr tan, one of the i/c of the courier team from control station. This is something like an interview session where Raymond and I had to ask questions to him regarding courier team operations. Ended the interview around 4pm. Raymond and I then discussed a bit regarding the courier hand book then went on to start filling in our weekly report for the school. Haha. By 4.45pm, we had nothing to do again. So we decided to go up to peggy and ask if we could see the list of customer complaints and actions done by the company to pass time. And she allow us to see!!!! Haha.. read some complaints that signpost have receive. Some were pretty funny and lame. Then Raymond and I was like “like this also want complaint”. Haha.. typical Singaporean ba.. Finally it was 5.50pm. So we return the complaints and compliments file to peggy then let our supervisor Alan to sign our attendance sheet and weekly report. Lol.. expected! I knew for our weekly report, he has no comments at all. Hmmm, do u think next week he will then have comments for us?? But ok.. that’s not the point. The point is that when we ask him to sign the necessary documents, it was then he mentioned to us that actually Friday, signpost officially ends work at 5.30pm... 30 mins earlier than usual. Raymond and I went........... LOL!!

BuzzzZzzZzzzz!!

2009-02-05T17:29:00.004+08:00

eeek!!! my house is infested with MOSQUITO!!!! everyday, there are so many mosquitos buzzing around. at night, alot of my family members all tio mosquito bite. >.< just 2 days ago, my sister bought 1 big insecticide spray, 1 mini electric mosquito repeller, and insect repellent. lol. we had cleared our house again but we can't find any mosquito breeding areas. T_T thinking it was from our neighbours house, we called the NEA (national environment agency) hoping that they will be able to do something to help us. ok.. my dad is the one who called the NEA ytd.

response from NEA was quite disappointing. all they mentioned was that this is an island wide issue. they have received many phone calls complaining about the high rate of mosquitos from the public as well due to the humid weather. this means not only my house is experiencing this problem. are your houses experiencing this issue too? haiz.. then no actions taken by NEA.. but just explainations and explainations... today, my sister had went to buy more mini electric mosquito repeller to put in each of the rooms in my house. lol. let's hope that this is able to lighten the mosiquito situation in my house.

diff from the past

2009-02-04T10:27:00.002+08:00

haiz. as time pass.. things doesn't seems to be the same anymore. i'm so disappointed in my family. they don't seem to be as caring as in the past.

ytd night, when i got home, upon seeing my right hand bandage, my bro ask me what happen to my hand. i replied that i hurt it during a badminton game. my bro then just walk away leaving me to close the door myself. =C

my mum... i told her that i'm tired and my body is aching plus my hand is in pain, i would like to rest instead of gamming. she scolded me for playing badminton. she say things like "who ask u play badminton? rubbish! you never play badminton before one lor. just bcos jie bought a badminton racket then u follow follow play. rubbish! and etc..."

my sister ytd reminded me that it was my turn to wash the dishes. i showed her my bandage hand and this was what she said "so? cannot remove the bandage and wash ar?" removing bandage doesn't mean removing pain.. i'm so disappointed in her response as it was the least expected response that i expect to hear from her.

my dad.. upon seeing my bandage hand, he ask me wad happen. after telling him that i hurt it during a badminton game.. he went on to tell me that he hurt his hand even worse than me last time. it's good that he share his story.... but at a time like this.... haiz...

why no one in my family ask how's my hand?? *sigh*

the new book that i have bought

2009-02-01T00:12:00.006+08:00

hmmm, today went shopping at centrepoint. Just had the urge to buy something.. haha.. what thing?? anything! but after trying on a few clothes at esprit, couldn't find anything that i like and suits me. however, as i went into time bookstore.. this book caught my attention: the 52 greatest stories of the bible.

this book is sooo cool! just reading the introduction alone makes me wanna read more. yup. the greatest call of the christian life is to know God and to help others to know Him. But where do we begin the task of communicating the gospel to a group of people who do not know the basic? how do we approach people who aren't even sure who God's is, what sin is, who christ is or what a Bible is for? and here's an example of how. we learn and tell the big story. the book goes all the way back to the beginning, step by step through the old testament into the new testament. i haven't started reading this book yet but i think this book is going to be a great book! though it's a pity that they are unable to write out the whole of the 66 books in the bible. Some pretty good stories were left out and that includes esther, job and etc...woohoooo!! am excited to start reading the book soon. =) tata~~~ Praise the Lord! Amen!

searching for the card...

2009-01-23T18:12:00.005+08:00

what is lost, is lost. it was my christmas gift. she had no job but chose to use her savings when i randomly said "i want it for christmas"....

haiz. it's so hard to cheer some1 up when me myself is feeling down.. but nevertheless, i will still try my best. =)

today i went to school for my iep meeting. lol. travelled for more than an hr to attend a 15 mins meeting. haha. after meeting, wanted to go amk hub to collect my contacts and at the same time, wanted to buy a card as well. look carefully ar.. main aim is to buy a card and collect my contacts...but when i reach amk hub, i collected my contacts but couldn't find any nice, cute card. so i thought of going to tampines mall to have a look.

here's the route back to tampines: take mrt to khatib, then take bus 969 to tampines interchange. when i was in the mrt, my mind is so preoccupied with stuff and when i finally come back to reality, i realise i was alr at Sembawang. -.-ll had missed 2 stops. thus, decided to drop back at woodlands then take 168. woodlands. haha.. that's where my starting point is. As i walk out of woodlands mrt, cwp was just infront of me. so i decided to drop by in to see if there got any nice and cute cards. in the end, no nice and cute cards but i bought myself a piggy bank from minitoons. lol.

then i decided to go tampines mall have a look look for the card. again, no card but i bought myself a pair of shoes, 2 tops and 1 shorts b4 i head for home. lol.. so at the end of the day, i have collected my contacts, bought a piggy bank, 2 tops, a pair of shoes and 1 shorts. all these are bought in the name of 'searching for a card'. HAHA. As i couldn't find any cute card.. i decided to send an e-card instead too. lol.

hope it will cheer the reciever up. that card cost me a piggy bank, a pair of shoes, 2 tops and 1 shorts. lol.

end of project rice.. starting of another volunteer event

2009-01-20T13:24:00.003+08:00

wooohooooo! project rice is finally over! east zone had hit its target of 1000 bags. in total we collected 1007 bags of 5kg rice and that's EXCLUDING all those chong chong rice and brown rice!!! lol. been pretty busy over the past few days with project rice. haiz. the only thing we have screw up is the rc thing. the tampines rc ppl did not alias with the other rc. so selfish... only post the posters in their own area. but in terms of other aspects and areas, i think we east zone had done pretty well. =)

through project rice, i have learned alot of things and make some nice friends as well. this includes jessica (zone director), kaman (coummunication manager), syed (area 5 ic), yong ming (area 3), chui yee (area7) and etc... even though project rice is pretty tiring and stress, i still enjoy myself during the planning stages and the execution days. if next year still have project rice, i would want to volunteer myself again for such thing. =) let's do it again next year, viv!!! ^^

hmmm, next volunteer event that i'm going to sign up for is the OCBC Cycle Singapore 2009. going to try out something new. instead of helping out as the usual usherer, i'm going to try out the airport crew where we are going to the airport to pick those elite cyclist from other countries. hehe. hope i can get selected for it. =)

my holidays~

2009-01-08T13:29:00.003+08:00

many things have been happening and been pretty busy over the past few weeks.. so i'll just do a brief post. =)

last dec, i went to macau and hongkong on the 24dec 08 to 27dec 08. first time enter a casino in macau. LOL.. i seems to be so fascinated by the casino. stayed at venetian hotel, where the adopts the european style. quite cool! haha. went to hongkong on the 26dec 08. arrive as early as 10am and the moment we check in at our hotel to lopang the luggage, we chiong straight to ocean park. at night did some shopping. the following day, went disney land and even though hong kong disney land is small compared to the other disney in the world, but i still find the disney damn super cool!!!!!!!! it's like harry potter like that. the magical world is separated from the real world. inside the magical world have it's own streets, shopping centre, cafes, hotels and etc... so cool!!! haha.. say me noob if u want.... my first time to disney land ma. haha. but didn't manage to stay at disney land long as we had to rush to the airport to catch our flight back to singapore in the evening. so the moment we enter disneyland, we look through the visitor guild and chiong to the main main attractions. haha. in hongkong, we even tried on their public transport. i notice hongkong public transport and sg public transport are rather similar. especially the ones that singapore is u/g now and hongkong alr has it!.. haha maybe singapore in learning from hongkong.

at night, when we reach home in sg, all of us were pretty tired to unpack. heng we alr pack for our cruise trip b4 we went hongkong. just need to transfer a few items here and there. haha. yup. next day, we took cruise to penang and phuket from 28dec to 31dec. hehe.. cruise was pretty cool though it was the 2nd time that i'm taking it. visited the argriculture farm in penang and went my time shopping in phuket. lol.

therefore, in total, i had a 8days holidays. =D

hmmm, i was quite disappointed when i didn't get to spend new yr eve with my bf. i wanted to watch fireworks with him. i even got my mum's permission to stay out late alr after a long hard persuasion. but oh well, it's ok now. =)

on 2nd jan, spend the whole day with my bf. forgot what we do alr. lol.. have lesson i think. or maybe not. haha.but i remember we had our gifts xchange. ok no. that's wad we did on the 23rd dec. lol. errrr... i remb going over his place to give him and his family the gifts i bought from hongkong, macau, penang and phuket. ahhh.. yes.. i remb.. i spend the whole day with my dear and had lunch and dinner with his family. =D eh no. that's also on the 23rd.. oh ya!!! i remb liao.. i had lunch with his family but he had dinner with my family. lol.

3rd and 4th jan.. i went shopping with my family. bought 3 shirts, 1 jeans, 1 shorts and a bag. =)

yup.. and on the 5th jan.. the most dreaded day that i do not want it to come.. haha.. cos it's sch reopen day!!! school reopen also pretty busy... got alot of first aid duties, rp open house, project rice and testsssss!!!! *diaos!*

The Great I Am

2008-12-18T22:27:00.004+08:00

Song: THE GREAT I AM

Do you believe in the great I am
Won’t you put your trust in him
He is the one
Treasure all the souls
All that you’re searching for
All that you’re looking for
All that you need is in the great~ I am

Don’t tell me that you never felt, alone and so afraid
Confuse by satan darkness, lead by demon will live
But are you wondering around in circles
Are you running from your fear
All and endless journey,
A destiny unclear

Lift up your eyes to the great I am
The only answer to your prayers
He is the one
Treasure all the soul
All that you’re searching for
All that you’re looking for
All that you need is in the great~ I am

***

as i spend time looking through the notes of my lesson 1... i remembered that he told me the key words for asking and praying is 'if you believe...' i was then reminded of my secondary school year 2000 musical, entitled the great i am. and above is one of the song sang in the musical. the great i am here refers to jesus christ. =)

low self esteem. =X

2008-12-14T22:04:00.003+08:00

oh my gosh!!! i just took a handwritting analysis, link from a friend's blog of mine. and the analysis seems to be pretty true.

here's the analysis:

Fione will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. (yes. if given space and time alone, i will be able to work more efficiently. i dunno why? but it's like i can think better when i'm alone but the i love u part not very true leh. in fact i think it's very important to say i love u to my mate even though each my mate already knows that.)

Taken from the size of my words: People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Fione doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. (hmm, maybe)

Taken from how i write my m or n: Because Fione has zigzagged shaped 'm' and 'n' hump, Fione is an analytical thinker. Her mind sifts and examines facts. She interprets all facts by separating them, breaking them down, and organizing them from a critical point of view. This pattern of clarifying facts contributes to her strong reasoning ability. Fione's mind is constantly analyzing all situations that she encounters. (hmm, maybe again)

Taken from the way i write the cross on the letter t: Fione's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Fione that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Fione also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Fione is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Fione's self-concept is artificially low. Fione will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Fione to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Fione is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken. (very true)

Taken from the way i write my bottom y: Something is incomplete in Fione's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Fione's sexual needs. (lol.. crap.. but i do fill something incomplete in my life. lol.)

Taken from the another way i write my bottom y: Fione is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends. (ya.. quite selective. but i can't be selective now if i want to fulfill god's mission for me)

Taken from the spaces i leave when writing on a blank piece of paper: For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Fione has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. Fione fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, then Fione has a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life.

The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past. Fione seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action.

Fione seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries. It will be easy to work with Fione on a team, because Fione will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over Fione if she is not careful. (Another very true analysis.)

After reading these, it seems that alot of things happens because of my low self esteem, which is a hinder to me. come to think of it, thinking of all those recent happenings, it seems pretty true. haiz. what should i do? how can i break this barrier? *thinks*

the upcoming march holidays

2008-12-14T20:57:00.008+08:00

haha. recently, i turned down my mum's holiday request and she was like in total shockness. lol. silkair is having promotion for their flights to surabaya and my mum wishes to take the opportunity to hurry book tickets before the promotions ends.

when she came up to me to confirm my school holidays in march, i told her yes i'm having holiday but i want stay in singapore. haha.. recieved total stunness from her. cos everytime she plans to go back indonesia, even when she has no intention to bring me along, i will ying ying want to tag along. haha. however next year is different from all the other years. next year when going back indonesia, my whole family is actually going even my dad!! usually is either my mum and my sister or my mum and me. =) luckily she understands how much i wanted to go for my school IEP programm and how it can benefit me during the holidays. in the end, the promotion ended and tickets not yet booked.

BUT! it's also not yet comfirm that i'm going for the IEP program. because only selected students can get to go for this program. i hope i can get selected. uh-oh. what if i'm not selected?? lol.. i cause them to unable to book their tickets and if i'm not selected = i'm dead. lol

***

"We need to know that we are weak before we can be strong"- i'll keep this in mind. thank you. =)

Countdown holiday...

2008-12-14T20:28:00.008+08:00

this christmas, i won't be celebrating in singapore. this is so sad. =X i want to spend christmas in singapore. yet, i actually also looking forward to this christmas. cos i will be going overseas. how ironic! haha. yup. =)

10 more days to hong kong
14 more days to criuse... wooohoooo

here's my holiday itinerary *hint hint* lols

HongKong- 4D3N

Departing Singapore (Sin- Changi Intl Terminal 3)
Wednesday, 24 december 2008. 1100 hrs
Arriving HongKong (HKG - Hong Kong)- 1445hrs
Flight SQ 862 (B777-300ER)

Departing HongKong (HKG- Hong Kong Terminal 1)
Saturday, 27 december 2008. 1830hrs
Arriving Singapore (Sin-Changi Intl)- 2220hrs
Flight SQ865 (B747-400)

Cruise- 4D3N

Sunday, 28 decenber 2008
Departure 3.00pm
Check-in commences 04 hours prior to schedule sailing time

Monday, 29 december 2008
Arrived at Penang 12.00pm
Departure time 8.00pm

Tuesday, 30 december 2008
Arrived at Phuket 8.00am (7.00am)
Departure time 6.00pm (5.00pm)

Wednesday 31 December 2008
Arrive Singapore 7.00pm

lalala~

What an awful day i had!

2008-12-12T22:32:00.004+08:00

i had a super awful day today. this morning when i woke up, my right eye was quite reddish but i ying ying go and use contacts. halfway in school, my right eye was getting rather itchy. thus, i decided to remove my contacts but only my right eye one. cos if i remove both, i confirm cannot see anything clearly at all. like this, at least my left eye can see things clearly when i wink. To top it off, when i open both eyes to look at my surroundings, i get headache.

AND ALSO, i kept sneezing the whole time. i think i caught cold this morning too. =X my sickness doesn't stop here yet. this afternoon after lunch got stomach ache. need find toilet shit. i pon 3rd meeting to rest at w6 canteen and wait for 4.45pm for my project rice meeting to start. however, my bro came to my sch to bring my specs. so nice of him. since we have like nearly 3hrs to 5pm, decided to go cwp catch a movie. lol.. we wanted to watch igor de 2.30pm movie. i have check on my laptop for the movie timing as well and how long the movie is. cos i need to be back in sch like 4.45pm for meeting. but when we reach cwp, we were told that there's no such movie igor! argh! wad was i reading just now! so pai seh at the counter. in the end my bro randomly pick a movie. BUT i was too sick to concentrate on my movie and i end up sleeping a little at the beginning of the movie. =X plus to top it off, we didn't know that the movie screening is for 2hrs!!! and it starts at 2.45pm. meaning, to be on time for my meeting, i have to leave even b4 the movie ends which i did. -.-ll

my mood was alr super bad and to add on, i was abit emo over "smt else" that took place during 2pm to 7pm, but it's fine now.. when i reach home, i was pretty hungry and there's no food at all. everyone go out tampines mall shop except my bro and i. i was searching for instant noodles and to my surprise, i can't even find 1 pack of it. lol. my mum reach home ard 10 pm and good thing she's going to fry egg for my dinner. haha. after that, my sister showed me some clothes she bought today and that make my feeling even worst! cos the clothes are really pretty and i also wan. =X but she add on that thay are going to bring me out shop at taka tmr.

i just finished my dinner and guess what, i got choke on my food just now. was coughing profusely. oh my! my day just can't get any worser. it's super awful!!!!

i just hope that tmr will be a better day for me.

hmmm, i wonder... god.. are you testing me??

shopping spree!!

2008-12-04T08:35:00.007+08:00

see our shopping bags?? yup i went shopping ytd. hehe.

went shopping for christmas gifts. lol. spend over $200++.. really had my bank acct suck dry. but guess what? i was happy at the end of the day. in fact i was in a joyous mood, the exact opposite of my mood in the morning.

but i was super tired as well.. now i'm in class trying to open my eyes wide wide to pay attention to wad the faci is talking abt.. lol.. we are learning to makes hearts now. haha.

Fear and Courage

2008-12-02T23:46:00.004+08:00

Fear.. according to encarta dictionary, it is a feeling of anxiety. it is an unpleasant feeling of apprehension or distress by the presence or anticipation of danger. It is also a feeling that everyone would have experience in some point of their life. Some may even experience it more than others. Fear can hinder relationships. It can also hinder the progress of one's life, character or personality. It can make one fall into a deep depression or it can even make one go crazy. It depends on what type of fear that each of us have.

The only way to overcome this feeling of fear is to have the feeling of courage. again, according to encarta dictionary, courage is the quality of being brave. it is the ability to face danger, difficulty, uncertainty, or pain without being overcome by fear. if one have the courage to face their fear, they can easily overcome their fears. but it's not easy to have courage. it takes alot of effort and determination with the help of God to give us courage to face our fears. Sometimes we may be able to recieve courage from family or friends, but it will not be as great as recieving from God.

So to overcome fear, you need courage and to have courage, we need to ask God to give us courage, and also maybe a little help could be given by the other party. we also need lots of effort and determination with a strong heart to darely face our fear. This is pretty challenging if your fear is too deep.

Do i have it? Do i have wad it takes to overcome my fears? Hmmm, So now you should know what's missing in you, fione. JIA YOU! XD

random post

2008-11-17T22:05:00.003+08:00

ahhh!. had been a tiring day for me. i even slept in class today. lol.

oh well.. waiting for wednessday to come.. hehe =P

-random post- lol.

praise the lord. =D

2008-11-16T18:54:00.002+08:00

lala lalalalalala, lala lalalalalalala, lala lalalalalala, lalalalalalalalalala~~~~

Today’s service is pretty special. It’s actually a drama service entitled, the journal. It depicts a typical Asian family who looks fine on the outside but actually have trouble relating to one another. Instead of facing reality, each of them escapes by becoming preoccupied with their own lives. The turning point came when God send an “angel” to visit the family and gradually brought them back to God and to one another.

From today’s drama, there are actually a lot of things I can learn from it. Firstly, it talks about commitment. Everyone has their own commitment. Examples, their work, studies and etc… Thus, they may tend to neglect their family members and their love ones or even God himself. Some may use their work commitment as an excuse for not going church and for not spending spend with God. CONFESSION: I was one of the some people last time. We give excuse to ourselves saying things like God will understand our commitment. But the question is do we understand our own commitment towards God. Do we understand our own commitment towards our family and love ones?

The so-called “angel” in the drama mentioned “To build a strong relationship with our love ones, it takes commitment and time. And to build a loving relationship with our love ones, God must be in the centre of all our lives.” Haha. Sounds familiar? Yup. Cos someone close to me once told me this before. But, I had forgotten about this until today when the so-called “angel mentioned that sentences, I was stun. I was suddenly reminded of this. Haha. I guess God has his owns ways in reminding us of such things.

This morning, I was even debating within myself whether to go for youth service or adult service. But something tells me to go for the adult service. I told myself “ok, I will go for the adult service, sit through the service and listened to the pastor preach about the rapture AGAIN.” I didn’t even bring my notebook today. Haha. Only brought a bible and a highlighter with me. But thank god I went for the adult service. I had many takeaways from the drama.

PRAISE THE LORD!

too many thoughts at the jetty

2008-11-15T21:32:00.003+08:00

Owwww! my foot ankle hurts... >.<

Today I went to East Coast Park with my family. Decided to roller blade and my bro choose cycling. I think I tie the blade lace to tight le. Now my ankle hurts a lot after blading for 2 and half hours. I think I will just bandage my leg later. Lol.

Hmmm, quite an improvement today too. Only fall down once…. on my bum. *poor bum* Haha.

Went to the jetty and rest. There’s not much people at the jetty. I like the feeling of the wind blowing at my face and at the same time, hearing the sound of the waves. It seems to bring away all my troubles and allow me to stay calm. At that time, many thoughts came to my mind.

I thought of all the things that happen since he and I got together. Happy, sad, laughter, cries, fear, excitement, nervous and whatever feelings that I have experience from this relationship. Come to think of it, I must have looked rather stupid at the jetty as I end up laughing alone at the thoughts of my memories.

At the same time, I was thanking God for the incidents and events that happen in my life. I believe all things happen for a reason. Be it whether I end up crying or laughing, there’s something I can always learned from it. Someone once told me that God only put test to us knowing that we can take the test. Thus, on our part, we need the strength and perseverance to actually last through the test itself. If not, the test will only be useless to us if we give up halfway. So Fione, you must JIA YOU, JIA YOU and JIA YOU!!! You still have a long way to go… and I promise I will try my best means I will! =D

After blading, went bk and eat. Woah.. eat like hungry ghost. LOL.

Haiz. Am tired but I enjoyed today’s outing. Yay! Tmr going to the food fair.. Yum Yum Yummy.

forgotten words...

2008-11-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

looks like some1 had forgotten wad he had told me yesterday... haiz =S

cold to hot

2008-11-11T13:01:00.002+08:00

lol.. from the day my school had the temperature taking exercise thing, i haven't remove the thermometer from my bag yet. lol.. seems like it comes in handy for today..

just taken temperature: 37.4 degrees celsius... am i getting a fever soon?? o.0?

what's the normal body temperature?? 37.6 degrees celsius?

ARGH!

2008-11-11T10:25:00.002+08:00

argh!!..

past few days been having a cold and flu.. keep sneezing especially at night b4 i head for bed to sleep. then early morning around 4am- 5am++, i will be awake sneezing again.... ZzzZZZ.

haiz. don't know why these few days so hard to wake up in the morning.. feeling so tired recently... hardly able to pay attention in class.. now i feel like sleeping!!! maybe is because of my cold ba. SIAN! or maybe because i just... ... but i didn't yesterday.

hmmm, didn't really have a good morning, but i'm feeling better le after acting like a mad woman in school. haha.

heading back to my sian worksheet now....

Freaky Friday

2008-11-07T21:41:00.005+08:00

Today something scary? weird? funny? (don’t know how to describe) happen to me. I was on my way home from Tampines mall. I took the bus 291 and I sat down inside towards the window. Not long after, a china man came and sat beside me. As I wasn’t in a good mood, I was staring outside the window thinking a lot of things during the bus ride. Thus, I really didn’t take notice of him. Suddenly, he spoke to me and ask, “xiao jie, what time is it now?” I looked at my watch and reply 5.40pm. He then suddenly strikes a conversation with me. He told me that he’s going to work (I assume he’s working either at street 21 the shop houses there or at Tampines mart) and his work starts at 6pm. He has forgotten to bring his handphone and thus, he didn’t know what the time is. And he is worried that he may be late for work. As a courtesy, I told him not to worry, as there is still time.

Then he went on and ask, “Are you a Singaporean?” I nodded my head. Then he continued, “I’m from China” I nodded my head again. Then he started telling me stories about his family in China and how he came to Singapore. I wasn’t really in a mood to listen stories and all I wanted at that point of time was for the bus to travel faster to reach either his stop or my stop. I was disappointed when the bus past street 21 and he didn’t board down at all. Assuming that he’s working at Tampines mart, I told myself it’s just 2 more stops to comfort myself. I nodded my head most of the time when he’s talking. -.-

When reach Tampines mart soon, he started asking me personal questions like what my parents do for a living, how old am I, where am I schooling and etc… I was shock when he didn’t board down the bus at Tampines mart. Because after Tampines mart are all HDB flats already before it loops back to street 21 back to interchange. So where is his workplace? I decided to ask him and he told me it’s at street 21 there. I ask why he didn’t board down just now. He mentioned there is still time before his work starts and I went -.-ll.

When reaching east spring pri the bus stop there, he asked for my email or contact number so that we can keep in contact with each other. I was stun for a moment. When reaching east spring pri, I pretended that I have reached my bus stop and board down the bus and walk home.

LOL. I don’t know what to say about this incident other than the word 'FREAKY!'
a conversation with him.... i'm lost!

Trust his heart

2008-10-28T21:58:00.003+08:00

i found the full song!!!!

here it goes...

***

Title: Trust His Heart
Written by: Babbie Mason and Eddie Carswell

All things work for our good
though sometimes we can’t see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what’s best for us;
His ways are not our own.

So, when your pathway grows dim,
and you just can’t see Him,
Remember He’s still on the throne.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.

So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.
He holds the future in His hands.
So don’t live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
but He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He’s weaving you and me
to someday be just like Him.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

***

i love this song.... =D

1st time @ wesley methodist

2008-10-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i decided to accompany my sister to church @ wesley methodist.. apparently, it was special service catered to those who have serve the ministries. among all the songs we sang, there's this song which really stands out from the others. usually after listening to songs especially those that i heard for the very first time, i don't tend to memorise the lyrics. but this song the chorus really keeps playing into my mind. LOL.

the chorus of the song went like this:

God is too wise, to be mistaken
God is too kind, to be unkind

So, when you don't understand
When you don't see his plan
When you don't see trace of his hand
Trust his heart.

nice right the song?? haha. so meaningful and truuuueee!

sometimes when bad or unfortunate things happen, we don't understand why it's happening to us. we can't see god's plan. we don't know what's he thinking and what he had in store for us. we also don't know why he is putting us through this test. But one fact we know is "God is too wise, to be mistaken. God is too kind, to be unkind". so wad we can do is to trust his heart. trust that he will be able to put us through the trial. someone close once told me that god only put test to us as he knew we will be able to pull through. =D

change blogskin

2008-10-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

woot! i finally change my blogskin le after so many months. haha.. seems like it looks nicer. not so black le. lol

these few days been feeling quite moody and touchy. haiz.. i hope my mood will turn for the better for next few days.

My name starts with letter F

2008-10-17T20:19:00.004+08:00

my friend just send me smt.. find it pretty true..haha

Does your name begin with: F?

You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.

LOL.

...

2008-10-05T22:00:00.004+08:00

past few days had a really bad sore throat. during that period, sometimes i even had headpain. been going on since last tues. now my throat still hurts. =C and i miss my own cheerful and talktive voice too. =p haha.

i want my normal voice back!!!!

haiz. past few days also happen to turn the friendship between me and her sour. but believe it or not, i never had the intention to hurt u right at the beginning till now... i do hope u hurry summarize your points....

notification of pp assessment

2008-10-03T08:42:00.005+08:00

An email that make my heart sank!

Dear Student,

Student Name: FIONE CHUA XIN NI
Student ID: 73217
PP Project Title: The social and economic impact of integrated resort in Singapore

Your PP Final Report has been APPROVED for assessment.

Details of your PP Assessment schedule are as follows:
Date: 31 Oct 2008
Time: 04:00 PM - 05:00 PM
Venue: Agora Hall 3 Booth 82

Please report punctually with two A1-size posters or equivalent (format available on PP website) for your presentation to three staff Assessors. The Assessors will grade your PP project based on your Final Report and presentation.

Students who are late or absent for assessment will not be graded and might be asked to repeat his/her PP module in the next academic year. For all cases of emergency, please contact your PP Advisor immediately.

that's pretty fast! the assessment is just at the end of this month. lol. i need to start printing my poster liao. 2 A1 size poster and everywhere is filled with colour. i wonder how much that would cost me.....

so nan shou~~

2008-10-01T11:05:00.004+08:00

ahhhh!

my throat sore and my ear seems muffled once in a while. i guess it's post f1 race symptoms. the f1 cars zoom past super fast and loud that most of the time during the race, i have to shout on top of my voice to talk to my friends or sometimes it's so loud that the ear plugs seems useless cos i can still feel the tremble in my ear drums.

lol.

after class...

2008-09-30T00:35:00.004+08:00

haiz. today after class have been an emotional one for me. i couldn't concentrate on my 6p for the upcoming ut.

something happen today. something beyond my expectation happen. i didn't know that i have hurt a friend. after talking to her on msn, i really feeling like crying sia. i just hope that he's right beside me at that moment so that i can hug him and pour out my emotions. i just hope that everything will turn out right and she and i could go back to our usual self before that thing happen. i just hope... ...

f1 formula race

2008-09-29T12:34:00.003+08:00

i am sooooo tired!!! after school still got ut. heng tmr school holiday. can sleep in late. for the past 3 days, i attended the f1 race. volunteered there as a first aider at marina bay for all 3 days.

day1: duty was borrrringggg. the racers were practising and not much of casualty. was posted to the roving team at marina bay. suppose to walk and walk whole day to search for casualty but my partner and i sat at a corner and sleep. haha. people are paying thousands to watch the race but when i got free entrance to it, i went to a corner and sleep. LOL. day1 super no welfare. food wasn't enough. most of the first aider didn't have lunch or/and dinner from the caterer. we had to go marina square to buy our own food instead. As for drink, best. walk under hot sun also never provide mineral water. bought a $3 bottled drink instead. -.-ll so ex. another important thing nt provided yet was the ear plugs! when the racer acclerate or zoom past, it nearly hurts my ear drums sia. i even bought the ear plugs from red cross itself! LOL.

day2: woosh!. slack duty. was stationed at AMP (Advance Medical Post). there got 4 doctors, 8 nurses, 4 first aider, and some i/c. the doctors and nurses were playing poker cards in an cordon area in the AMP. -.-ll i got the chance to sleep on the bed in the AMP room. haha. now is sleep at the AMP, not at some corner. and duty was slack because most casualty were quite minor. when casualty comes in, just give them a chair to sit, take down their particulars and poof! i'm done. leave the rest to the doctor. =D haha.. day2 got food provided to us. this time is alot of food provided to us. haha. we managed to get the food from the caterer early and red cross also got order excess food. guess wad they order?? 2 cartons of mac chicken. haha. nth but just mac chicken. then each person was given 2 mac chicken + 2 bento from the caterer for lunch and dinner. there were also excess of drinks. lots of ice mountain water, coca cola and 100+. we even helped ourseleves to the drinks in the staff room where they had ice lemon tea, green tea, hot tea, coffee, milo, etc..

day3: final day of the f1 race. was posted to do roving at marina bay-> same as day 1 de. but this time, it's more coordinated. it is shift based and every 1 hr, we swop shift with the other teams then we can rest for the other hr. ytd's night race was the most jing cai among all. alot of funny incident during the race. 2 cars overshot and had to make a 360 degree turn. quite cool leh when they turn. very diff from normal car turn.. well, fei hua.. f1 car leh. there was also a car crash at the marina bay. whole front car was smash up and smoke started to appear. after some time, the drive stood up and came out of his car. every1 at the bay there stood up and clap hands. interesting.. there was also another crash but i dunno at where.. haha.. everywhere looks the same to me. the most funny incident is that got this car, the petrol head haven't pull out from the car yet ar, then i think got some1 gave him wrong signal or what, he then suddenly drove off. haha. then the tail of the petrol tube came off from the machine! hahaha. then when the person tried to remove the head of the petrol tube from the car, it seems like it's stuck to it! took them quite some time to pull out the tube before the racer could drove off. LOL.

after the f1 race, i was sooo super tired. i could almost sleep and walk at the same time. my mind not working well and my body functioning like going to break down at any time soon. thank goodness we finally reach city hall mrt!. the only thing that's working fine is my heart that is yearning for some comfort and motivation. reach home, i hurry packed bag and washed up then off to sleep. all 3 days i reached home nearly 1 am. today i can't even wake up. overslept a little and was almost late for school. when i enter class, just nice the faci taking attendance. haha.

argh!! my stomach is giving me problems again. these few days on-off the pain. went doctor last tues and he said it's gastric. now on medication... opps! just now b4 lunch forget take medicine. hope take after lunch still not too late.

~~tired and sleepy~~

bleh!

2008-09-18T09:26:00.004+08:00

sooooo 'nan shou'....

headache ytd morning.. down with flu and my throat in pain. T_T to top it off, i accidentally drank my mum's tea (specially for herself) and it cause me to have a stomach ache and diarrhea.. what's becoming of me???

so siannnnn!

now facility planning is making me sleep. ZZzzzZzz..

awwwwww!

2008-09-16T20:51:00.003+08:00

woah!!... what a close shave.. ytd, i was super close to go hospital.. As i cross the road out ngee ann sec sch... almost got knock down by motor cycle. i think my mind was thinking of something + i was having bad cramps ytd =X BUT, i know i did look out for vehicles before crossing. a few even cross with me. lucky got a kind passerby pulled me back in time to avoid the crash.. so heng can... just then i was reminded by my china friend who said "xiao xin guo ma lu" when she said goodbye to me. lol.. so qiao..

last sunday, i went to church.. the paster preached about faith... our faith in god, nothing is impossible if we have faith in him and etc... i was quite shaken, or maybe more of surprise when he gave out his scripture reading. u know why?? that's because just the night before, i was just questioning myseelf about my faith in god! LOL!

oh man.. my throat hurtsssssss!!!!! hope it will be better tmr... T_T

a day out with my siblings =D

2008-09-06T22:31:00.004+08:00

hmmm, today been a great yet tiring day for me.. =D

went out with my siblings today... me and ah boy met up with jie at taka ard 1pm. first store we visited is our famous bookstore KINOKUNIYA!! haha, the place where i'm looking for part-time cashier job. =) bought a few manga books today. we had our lunch at mos burger later on. lol, we ordered 3 meals (upsize) and 2 side dishes. too many food for us and there were quite alot of leftover fries. not wanting to waste food, we decided to play guessing game and loser has to eat 1 fries.. and the game goes on and on... lol.. quite fun playing the guessing game. we even finished up the veggie that i remove from my burger.. haha.. after lunch, we went taka departmental store there to find a pink medium size bear bear for my 3 yr old cousin.

haha.. as we were bored, we decided to have a mini-competition among the 3 of us.. the game: see who can find the pink-medium bear. time frame- 30mins. the winner is..... tatatata.... that's me. =D haha.. i saw pink bear then i hid it.. LOL!

after that, we take a look at mooncakes at the taka mooncake show. jie want buy d24 durian mooncake from goodwood park. but sold out. then we walk to isetan shaw house there, shop and look around. wanted to cahtch a movie at shaw house but movie ticket quite ex la.. $10.50 per person. =X then we went to ck tang to look ard for toys for our cousin. after that, we walk to goodwood park to see if they got the d24 durian still... bt... SOLD OUT! poor jie...

after walking ard for sooooo long, we were so super tired! thus, we decided to go tampines mall catch a movie at gv.. haha.. jie got hsbc card, so got discount. we watch bangkok dangerous cos got jie's favourite nicholas cage act in it. haha.. nc16 movie- have some violent scenes like cut being cut off, body being exploded into pieces, etc..

after the movie ended which is around 9pm plus. wanted to go mac buy dinner.. but guess wad!!!!! when i reached there, saw a crowd of people outside mac looking and pointing inside. i thought mac having party or wad.. BUT i was wrong! instead there were mices crawling inside mac!. i was so shock. some girls that were inside mac were standing on chairs. most of the guys took out hp or camera to take pic of it. LOL!! i see scare alr.. dun feel like eating mac le. not only 1 mice but a few leh.. i only saw 2 of it.. but before i walk away from mac, i heard some1 say there were a few mices that fall from the ceiling. EEEKKKK!!!! but i think cos it's raining, that's why the mice started running in to mac for shelter.

haiz.. my deardear is soooo sick.. T_T hopes he feels better tmr....

first day of sch

2008-09-04T20:55:00.004+08:00

wooosh! today....

new semester
new classroom
new classmates + 2 old ones.. lol
new team
new module
new faci
and lastly... used new bag. haha

first day of school not bad.. class seems pretty ok to me. my team today... hmmmm, also not so bad. in fact, they very entertaining today.. lol

all my other previous classmates were separated into different classes but mostly all on the same level. E45E.. yup.. that's my classroom. lol..

let me list some of my fren's classes.. may be useful if i want get ppt next time. haha.

e45a- i know there's some1 there.. but i forget who liao. haha
e45e- myself, alex and zhangqian
e45f- joanne
e45g- xiboon
e45h- randy and dengyue
e45k- stephen, peiwen and louis
e45l- mas
e45n- kat and vivian

hehe...

Commex IT fair

2008-08-31T21:55:00.006+08:00

ytd, i work at the Commex IT fair under fujitsu tec for challenger. suppose to report work at 11am, so i decided to meet vivian at 10.15am at tampines mrt. lol.. she late again. came ard nearly 1030am. reach le city hall, waited for her fren to come. reach suntec city ard 11.10am. i was given a L size shirt. lol. L size is so big for me.. like my red cross shirt like that. vivian happens to have a S size shirt which seems tight fitting for her and she alr wore that shirt for 2 days which i dun mind. haha.. after much persuasion, she finally decided to swop shirt with me. thanks viv. =D

the whole work ytd for sooooo tiring.. had to stand the whole day all the way till nearly 10pm where we can finally knock off. lol.. doing sales is so hard!!!! throughout the day, i talk soooo much and only sold 1 piece of laptop. so pathetic.. ard 7plus, i give up le. so tired and hungry.. thus, i end up giving out flyers instead. at the end of the day, i was so hungry. the lunch and dinner they packed for us had chilli in it, which i end up not eating much because of the chilli.

after the IT fair, i met my deardear at cityhall mrt. i'm surprised that he would actually send me all the way home. cos usually (eg. my ndp parades) he would only sent me to tampines mrt. hmmm, i was pretty hungry then. so we had supper at tampines mart mac. =D he sat at my house for a while and we took a few pictures too before going off for home.

overall: was tired but dunno why i dun feel much tiredness with him ard. lol. felt very happy and sweet instead. but after he left, boom! my mood fell and i felt super tired. thus, i change out of my clothes, sms him then pia on bed sleep. LOL.

my trip in indonesia

2008-08-28T22:14:00.005+08:00

Wooohooo.

Recently just came back from my oversea trip (indonesia). had a great time there.. but i miss my deardear alot during the trip. =X it's an 8 days trip and i went with my mother this time... and here's a brief description of wad i did during the 8 days...

day1: took a 1pm flight to surabaya. my deardear send me off at the airport.. so sweet of him even though he was late =X arrive there ard 3pm. Evelyn and Yiyi Rene came to pick us up. Evelyn is sooooo cute. she stand at the gate there and peek to look out for us. haha.. then we went straight to Darmo.. at night, went to supermall to shop a little. but mainly is to get mama's specs done and eat dinner as well.

day2: wake up 5am local time (sing 6pm) to catch a train go to solo. solo is another city in indonesia. it's a 4 and half hr train ride. took the first class train. =D but sit too long ar, butt suan.. haha.. reach there, met gu han and ark kim who came to pick us up. henny and roy then bring me ard solo to shop.. they also bring me to visit the solo palace which have over 100 yrs of history.. roy was the driver for the day.. he just got his lisence... congrats roy =D though ur turning is abit unstable.. lucky got henny beside u to guilde u along. at night met up with henny's friends for dinner.. haha.. they almost wanted to bring me to clubbing cos they dunno where else to bring me after dinner. overall, i enjoyed myself at solo^^

day 3: wake up 5am again.. this time is to catch a train back to surabaya with gu hein, gu han and ark kim.. another 4 and half hr ride for me. Wah Mei-lan, christian and cynthia came to pick us up at the train station. went to their new house.. wah... their new house super big and nice. =D reach there, went to look ard the house then play pool. aiyo.. i super lousy sia.. can't really shoot the balls.. at night, attended my grandparents payer ceremony as it's my grandmother 3rd year death anniversary.

to be continued.....

Girl VS Boys

2008-08-10T10:35:00.003+08:00

Something cute that I came accross:

When a Girl Cries ------------ The World 'Consoles' her

But when a boy cries ---------- Come on man don't be A 'Girl'

If A Girl slaps a Boy ----------- Definitely the Boy would have 'done something'

If Boy Slaps a girl -------------- Rascal doesn't know how to 'Respect Ladies'

If a Girl is talking to Boys ----- She is 'Very Friendly'

If a Boy talks to a Girl ---------- He is 'flirting'

If a Girl meets with accident -------------------- Then its 'mistake of others'

If a Boy meets with same accident ------------ Bloody you 'don't know how to Drive'

And the list never ends…….

Poor Boys....

burn out test

2008-08-08T14:27:00.002+08:00

My dear vivian asked me to take this test after i asked her if she wants to go mental insitution for extra C&C... Results seems okay to me.. AT LEAST BETTER THAN YOUR 74% =D

You Are 41% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows.

You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately.

If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important.

You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.

Are You Burned Out?

sweet girl

2008-08-08T13:59:00.004+08:00

My sweet friend just dedicated this song to me....

Open open your eyes
Just look at me now
The moment I saw you
You were the biggest present that heavens have sent me
You're the only one
Just one, there's only you
You're the only one I'll never part from
Just let me love you

-vivian-

PS: vivian.. stop living in self-denial..

funny pics

2008-08-05T16:09:00.008+08:00

Haha.. just some hilarious pictures i came across..

hope it brings laughter to the people around me =D

personality test

2008-08-01T11:45:00.005+08:00

haha.. peiwen send me a link to take my personality test. done it for fun and here's the outcome..

The analysis:

You are an outgoing and cheerful person. Although you get frustrated sometimes, you get through hard times easily and are joyful again.

Your friendly personality makes you attractive in the eyes of the opposite sex, but this makes your spouse feel insecure. Your lack of emotion is a disadvantage, but your candor has made you popular.

Friends of your gender find it hard to understand you because of your innocent thinking. But this is your advantage as it attracts members of the opposite sex who have the same personality as you.

hmmm, find it rather true except for the part that says lack of emotion. =X lol.

E217 lesson today

2008-07-31T14:52:00.003+08:00

woah... today class end pretty early. alot of people left class halfway. usually, i would leave tgt with them but today, i choose to stay....

haha.. why? maybe is because i know he won't leave class halfway at all.

now is not even 3pm and 6th p has already started. =D

before my ppt presentation, i recieved a call from da jie. was reminded that i have to clear the house first b4 my bf can come in. dotss...

interesting 3rd meeting...

2008-07-29T15:04:00.007+08:00

today's 3 rd meeting pretty interesting.

no ppt required. solutions to be work on majong paper BUT presented to your own team members. so it's like each of us take turns to present what we know about today's solution to our own team.

after that, we have a talk session among our own team members where each of us is to state their high and low point in their life. eg: my high point is that when the people around me is happy, i'm happy. becos my emotions gets easily affected by the people ard me. so if they are happy, i'm happy. thus, i would try to make the ppl ard me happy. =D however, my low point is that when i am unable to meet the expectations of others of me. i will feel disappointed of myself. =/

after the sharing session, we then had to give encouragement to the one beside us left and right. after that, we then go into the 6th Presentation.

Pretty interesting 3rd meeting right?? no boring ppt today.... the purpose for today's 3rd meeting sharing session is to learn to listen to others and don't always interrupt when others is talking. well, from this, i also get to learn more abt my teammates (Aaron, Joanne, PeiWen and Stephen) and sometimes what some of my team mates say also kind of reflect of myself...

okays.. preparing for ut now.. 2 ut today.. dots.. this morning the e210 operation planning ut like wan kill me le.. now need to chiong for e214 ut... JIA YOU FIONE!!!!

You need to buck up in alot of areas not just ut.. but also in relationship too..

quoted from jie's blog

2008-07-21T11:20:00.004+08:00

woosh jie... quote this from ur blog

"I guess in the modern society, the guys will treat the gals as equal. it is good but the girls would still want to be girl.. deep down they wish that they are a princess that is doted and pamper.. to lean on her guy when time of need.. Not to be strong and what so ever.. Yes it is good to be strong, but it would be better if there is someone to lean to.. like yr family, frens and even her guy...It is really disheartening... especially something like, i want to eat apple, i wish to eat apple BUT he chose not to give her to eat apple.

IS there anything wrong of being a girl girl?!! arg! i guess modern and traditional times--- there are pros and cons..

Either learn to live with it or...."

i somehow agree with what u think...

hmmm, have a busy weekend last wk.. will be updating abt it soon....

MIRACLE

2008-07-14T11:02:00.003+08:00

haha.. this is miracle sia.

my team actually completed our ppt around 10am.. now all of us now chionging 6th P for inventory management as we have ut later on @ 4.15pm.

last sat 12/7 is the ne show 2. my duty was pretty relaxing compared to the previous week. lol.. i was station as mrt marshall at lakeside mrt. so basically, my duty is to prevent the public from boarding up the mrt and preventing the pri5 kids from going out of the mrt during the train ride. we stop at 4 diff stations to pick up 4 schools. zhangde pri board up at my cabin and i was sort of incharge of them.

after reaching raffles place, amanda and i went had to settle the kids and follow the school all the way to the floating platform. we both just happen to walk in front of class 5T which stands for Texas, an america country. the boys at the front is soooo cute and funny. the class monitor, jerome, holding onto the school signboard, is pretty authoritive. he keep telling his class mates to walk behind him. haha.. his assistant justin (i think, can't remember) very helpful and cute too. still got some of their friends as well... haha.. whole time they entertaining amanda and me.

hehe.. for this week ne show, amanda and i managed to kope a funpack bag for ourselves. got the 2 boys to help us look after the bag during the parade show. the boys were so nice that they even helped us to carry the bag to the mrt to pass the bag to us. =D sorry, boys. we wasn't able to collect from u then as we are bound to our duties. =X

after the ne show, my dear came down to meet me to send me back. =) he also bought for me soya bean milk and egg tarts cos i was having cramps =x.. so sweet of him. thanks dear. =D

was super tired after the whole event. then went staright home....

yesterday, went to michael hse to do the nyaa ppt slides for the upcoming AGM. did the ppt slides and planned the club budget till ard 4pm. then went to ghoby ghaut xchange there to meet wenhao who had just finished work. had trouble looking for suitable place as we need to find a place which have 3 socket point to charge our laptops. haha. but it turns out that wenhao got bring the multi-purpose plug-in. haha. so we settle down at foodacia and eat and discuss abt the calendar of events. everything was send to me and i went home to complie it into the ppt and send to the the secretary of the SC.

no time study for ut sia. so i just glance thru the 6thP and roughly know wad it is abt then go sleep. haha...

some light shinning on my ut =D

2008-07-07T20:55:00.006+08:00

WOooOOOHOooo!!

i finally see some light in my UT grades. my whole of first ut for all four modules were mostly Cs and Ds range. that's so discouraging lor. HOWEVER, in my UT 2, i score 2 Bs, though there is still one C+ and D+. but still, the 2 Bs make my day. =D

now i am so motivated to study for my UT tmr for engineering cost decision to maintain my grades!!! =D

JIA YOU, FIONE!!!!

uh-oh! but i didn't go school for problem 10 for this module. wonder if i can understand the 6th P or not.. heard it's tough. =X

First NE show

2008-07-07T15:00:00.005+08:00

5th july (sat) was the first NE show. super tiring and headahe after the whole parade. suppose to report at 11am for attendance but reach the floating platform at 1130am instead. scan for attendance then went searching for my team. we then had a final briefing regarding our duities during the different 5 phrases. CC was my partner then. and both of us were stationed at staircase 1 and staircase 2 repectively which is like the front of the seating gallery. most of the time, my duties were mainly ushering. haha.

hmmm, stand almost the whole time except during my lunch and dinner break. my leg so suan... went to my stationed at ard 245pm to prepare for the crowd to come in but there wasn't any crowd at all till like nearly 4plus when schs starts to start strolling in. the worst thing is that i am standing under the sun!!!! felt like fainting at some point of time. =C plus, i didn't want to drink alot of water as i'm afraid i would need to visit the toilets which is quiet a dist walk from my station. plus, water point is at SW 6!!! and i am stationed at SW 1!!. wait drink till no water how?? need walk so far to refill. lol.. but den ard 6plus, i realise that there are 2 waterpoint which were in SW 6 AND 1. i wonder why i couldn't find the water point in SW1......

moreover, i kept running up and down the stairs (my stationed 1st level, meeting area 3rd level, lunch at 2nd level SW, dinner 3rd level, toilets 1st level, water point 1st level). imagine you are having dinner, after ur duty, you went up to 3rd level for dinner, then you realised you running out of water need go down lvl 1 refill, after that, go back up to 3rd lvl to continue dinner. then after dinner, you need to use the toilet, go back level 1 again. after that, need to report to leader at 3rd lvl again for duty b4 going down back to 1st level for my duty. with all the running up and down plus the loud noises going on, how can i not get headache!! =X plus this is only during my dinner. wad abt during my duty?? pia! dun wan think abt it.

after the ne show, during the dismissal, there were some miscommunication break down during instructions. the APLs can't coordinate well and keep giving overlapping instructions. haha. make me and nat there blurr blurr like that. dunno whose instruction to follow. LOL. after all our duties, went for debrief and finally DISMISSAL which is like ard 10.30pm like that.

i was feeling so tired and my head pain sia. T_T. hope the next ne will be better instead. I WANT TO GET POSTED TO SCH!!!! pray they post me to sch for next show....

collection of ndp U and MY ANNIVERSAY gift =D

2008-07-06T13:23:00.004+08:00

on thurs- 3rd july, after school, he accompanied me to collect my ndp uniform and security pass. the uniform top is pretty nice actually. i love the top. HOWEVER, the pants is so 'noob'. didn't like the pants uniform. and when i collected my security pass, the first thing i looked at was my picture on the pass. i look so retarted. told yao xing to change to another pic liao. but he didn't. he say he forget. >.<>

watch get smart movie

2008-07-06T12:54:00.003+08:00

last wed 2/7, i went for a calafair job filming. there were 5 of us- welna, david, bosco, me and another guy that i dunno his name. the title of the film is called noose. haha. this is the first time i did filming that i was actually given lines to memorize. others were usually be extras with no lines. lol. during the filming, i was so pai seh la. cos among the five, i was the only ones who forgotten my lines. the host even prompted me for my lines and i still couldn't remember. so pai seh >.< NG becos of me!!!! LOL

after the whole filming thing, met yk to watch get smart at marina square. was a pretty nice movie. quite funny also. after the movie, yk went home. after that, he sms me saying he got smt to say to me one. but just need time to phrase wad he wante to say. budden, i rush him off to the train then in the end he never say wad he wanted to say...hmmm, i wonder wad is it??

i then met my sister at cityhall mrt. we went to new york new york to eat our dinner. pretty nice food there. just the 2 of us cost $54. haha. we order a bowl of soup (share), 2 main course and 1 dessert (share) also. lol.. i only pay $10 and the rest is under my sister's treat. =D

then, we went home................

last ndp training

2008-06-30T13:51:00.003+08:00

my ndp training updates:

during the first ne show, i will be helping out at the concourse area. i think my duties are mainly ticketing. why think?? because they say nth has been confirm yet and asked us to always check our e-mails for updates of duties, etc... lol. the first ne show is this sat somemore. haha. my duty seems pretty relaxing uh? but i want to go to primary schools fetch the pri 5 kids instead. i think that would be fun. =D

collection of uniforms- was inform that we could start collecting it on tues (1/7) as it will come in earlier than expected. we were then asked to check our e-mails for the time and location. however, up till now, no e-mail send. maybe tonight ba....